I'm so scared. People always say that it doesn't matter what sexuality you actually are, but I feel like I am/ will turn gay and have to leave my husband. It's been destroying my life for the last 5 years.
I understand your condition, but it is better to consult a doctor, believe me, this is the best decision you can make now. and you will feel better)
Hey! I’ve been struggeling with SOOCD for 5 + years ans just wanted to let you know I know hard it is and I am also in a relationship for 7 years. Try to sit in the moment and not think about the future! What matters is that you’re happy now and whatever happens in the future you’ll cross that bridge when you get there! Im not even gonna dig in and ask you how it started or of you ever anything before because to would feed your OCD!
@Anonymousesti Pls help pls i feel helpless and your comment made me hope for some guidance pls do.. i would be grateful
@Anonymousesti Hey this is so similar to me - it comes in waves and is so scary- because it has been there so long that’s how it convinves me it may be real
@Anonymous - yeah I really get that... I can't even find guys attractive anymore and since I was never the "boy crazy girl" in high school and I used to choose who I wanted to have a crush on it really sucks because it really feels true. What I try to remember is that sexuality is a spectrum and if you're happy with your bf right now that is all that matters. Everyone loves differently!
Hey... I feel like I remember you from somewhere... I remember talking to you a while ago...
I feel I have HOCD FOR MORE THAN 10 years now. Basically all my ocd started since me and my husband started dating for real…. Will it ever go away? Will I ever be happy? Will I ever know? I don’t know… How long for you? Edit for me it’s more SO OCD cause I think I’m bisexual
people who have so-ocd, do you feel like you’re lying to your partner secretly. i don’t know why i get these intrusive thoughts but my mind continuously keeps making scenarios where i will leave my girlfriend in the future for a man. i want to stay a lesbian forever and i don’t want to hurt my girlfriend and it makes me so upset that my brain makes these thoughts up. i really hate all these thoughts and i don’t want to be with a man, i don’t want to be attracted with one, i don’t want to like one or anything related to one.
Does anybody else face both SOOCD and ROCD? I feel like it has been an ongoing cycle since January and now its July. This all started over a “should I kiss her” thought when dropping off a friend at home and ever since then, it is ongoing. My reaction used to be to cry and panic, and now its kinda mellowing out which scares me into thinking it could be real (all because my reaction is not what it used to be). I also have been facing sheer panic anytime I face something related to coming out. For instance, I seen a post on social media the other day about a women who came out after 14 years being with a man, after she rekindled a friendship with an old female friend…My head goes “so it could happen to me”. Or for instance, the other day, my grandma gave me a hoodie to give to my mom, or for me to keep for myself if it fit, and of course when she showed it to me, it had a rainbow heart and rainbow draw strings. This immediately sent me into a stomach turning panic. On the other hand, this is causing me to feel like I need to leave my boyfriend because what if I leave him in future anyway because of my sexuality. What if im saving him? This has all stopped me from feeling anything towards him and our relationship and Im scared on what that means. I know a lot of things read that it can cause a mental shut out of emotions, and a disconnect in the relationship, but it is making me feel nothing anymore and im scared that it means its time to let go. Our relationship has been nothing but perfect for 2 years. We barely argue and if we do, it is over quickly. Hes always opening my door, checking on me, taking me to do things to create memories, etc. I know that the honeymoon phase ends quickly but im having a hard time disassociating the difference between honeymoon phase is over, this is normal, or if I should leave him and because of the SOOCD thing or maybe I really am not straight. Thank you to whoever read all this. Im sorry for it being so long.
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