Lists

I can relate. Lists and notes is a major concern for me. Normally I have to write things down often on several pages of papers I carry around with 2 pens . At some point I shred the notes and start all over again. For me it really is all or nothing, I do better not taking any notes at all because otherwise I end up writing a novel ? LOL ! No middle ground with this subject for me I have been dealing with this for years.

My psychiatrist says my note taking and list making is contributed to/ is a symptom of my ocd

Maybe it is? Maybe it isn’t? But I can relate!! This is actually how I figured out I had OCD. I was super embarrassed to tell my talk therapist how many lists and notes I made because I knew it was a little odd and that she would tell me to stop. I didn’t feel like I *could* stop. If I couldn’t write them down it was like they would just bounce around and I would try to hold the thought in my attention so I wouldn’t forget something important. For me, these are mostly about solving my mental health issues. I also used to copy all these lists and pages of thoughts from Google docs to a physical journal. I would reorganize the same thoughts. I just wanted to understand and remember them. When I saw I had >80 typed pages of notes for the past few months, I told my therapist and it seemed like there was like a lightbulb turned on in her head for why I wasn’t getting better. My psych diagnosed me with OCD years ago but I didn’t understand it. And all the meds without the right therapy weren’t working. I started NOCD a few weeks ago. Still making lists, though far less. And I haven’t copied an entry since Dec 31. Do you feel like making the lists reinforce the worries or makes them better? And better for how long? Thank you for posting. It’s amazing to know other people do it.