i’m desperate, i’m not 100% sure if this is due to ocd or anxiety or both, if i’m wrong i apologize, the past week or so i’ve only been able to sleep 3-4 hours a night, it literally doesn’t matter what time i go to sleep and my brain has me fully convinced i’m dying or i’m gonna die and it’s terrifying me, making me have more anxiety. if anyone has any advice at all, please help me.
This sounds very similar to my first OCD episode I experienced when I was 9. I was afraid/convinced I was dying and then I was so terrified I could not sleep. Which just made it worse. I dealt with it for a couple of months but once I had more of a routine, things got a little better and it gradually improved. It was around the time school had let out for the summer, so I think the change in schedule and having more free time was a trigger. When I was 9, I didn’t know what OCD was and I couldn’t articulate my experience. But after years, I began to notice health related (amongst other) themes and was diagnosed with OCD. Now it all makes sense. It doesn’t make the thoughts or the anxiety stop. But I found comfort in knowing that there is a name for what I am experiencing. I am sorry you’re experiencing this. I am glad I saw your post - I have never encountered someone who had such a similar experience
Hi! You’re not alone. I went through this. I ended up learning new skills on how to deal via a sleep app and YouTube videos and I’m happy to share if you are interested.
I am always here if you need to talk! Seems like anxiety and ocd go together at least for me It could be maybe a little of both I am here for you!
@sshafer89 thank you! what can i message you off of?
This sounds health OCD. Please talk to a therapist.
I have barely slept in three days, maybe two hours a night. I feel so overwhelmed and uncomfortable right now. I cannot, for the life of me, stop confessing. I feel absolutely unforgivable, like no matter what it is, I am irredeemable. These waves of guilt and dread keep hitting me so hard. Every time I sleep, all I do is dream-ruminate. I analyze every tiny detail of whatever I am obsessing over, even in my sleep. It almost feels easier to stay awake, not that I have been able to do anything else. I feel so drained. I am scared to sleep. I hate my brain. I feel so anxious.
so i have ocd but this is the main theme ive been dealing with for the last few months, im obsessed with my mortality and i feel trapped by the reality of death. i dont really believe in an afterlife which makes it scarier, not that i dont wanna my brain literally just wont let me. but i have daily panic attacks thinking about death all day, its honestly the toughest thing ive ever dealt with. does anybody have any tips on how they manage this if they have ever dealt with it? not looking for reassurance, just some non compulsive ways to kind of lessen the grip of the fear.
the concept of death & existence is ruining my life rn 😭 im losing so much sleep. i try to close my eyes & all my brain wants to do is try to wrap itself around the idea of what not existing feels like & i get this sinking feeling that grows & grows until my eyes snap open & i have to go back on my phone to distract myself until im literally too exhausted to keep my head up & my body forces me to sleep. it makes having the motivation to do anything hard because all i can think is "it wont matter when i die". it sucks because i know that having MORE in my life might actually improve this, im 21 unemployed still living at home with ASD & i know once i have a job that will definitely give me more to focus on & other stresses to have lol, but i feel like im stuck in the endless cycle of "not having a life makes me worried im wasting my life & itll all be over so fast" & then "being so stressed about my life & time passing is exhausting & makes it too hard to find the motivation to do anything other than sit here" & repeat. spirituality is hard because i like thinking that way, like afterlife & shit, but i worry that im just "in denial" & using it as an unhealthy coping mechanism that leads to magical thinking thoughts. then its like i have some sort of meta ocd spiral obsessing over if what im doing is bad & unhealthy for my ocd or not. i LIKE being spiritual but im worrying im hurting myself & doing a compulsion thinking that way. it also doesnt help that religious spaces have hurt & traumatized so many people & im terrified of being apart of a "delusional" community that spreads a false narrative & attacks anyone that doesnt agree with them. i know i am not like that but i worry im still apart of the problem even thinking this way. at the end of the day no one knows the truth, no one knows what happens after death. im just struggling to sit with the uncertainty. it is so late rn idk of any of my words make sense lol
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