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oh my god! this is totally true. since i was so little i had all these urges to watch lesbian porn or watch women or anything, but i would always feel so gross and anxious after. i then learned that fantasies and thoughts are not reflective of your sexuality at all! it’s all just whatever gets you turned on in the moment also i struggle with being afraid of being gay even though i know i am not. i only have ever liked men and still do. i have a boyfriend and the idea of being with a woman is a hard no for me… but that doesn’t mean ocd won’t try to convince you other wise! don’t give up it’s just the ocd! you’re not alone

You're definetly not alone, as hypersexuality/ sexual OCD is one of the things I struggle with all the time. In fact, my PMO addiction is one of the reasons my OCD manifested because the more toxic dopamine I consumed, the more my anxiety started rising. I dont want to share the kind of thoughts I had to prevent your OCD from thinking the same thing but I struggled a lot with false memory OCD and sexual intrusive thoughts all the time. It took me about 2 years to be more comfortable with these thoughts, because there is nothing we can do to stop these thoughts from popping up, but from my time journaling my own OCD, the main reasons why these thoughts manifest, at least for me, is because I have a lot of anxiety, low self esteem, and because I keep relapsing to it. Through time, however, I became more courageous and unafraid, simply because I recognize when these thoughts pop up, the kind of cycle anxiety takes and recognizing how my anxiety "swings" throughout the day. You definetly dont have to beat yourself up about it because everyone has sexual intrusive thoughts or struggles with some form of lust. I also didnt know that my hypersexuality came in the form of my OCD. Im 23 myself and I've been there. However, If I became a lot better, then you can too. Don't let your anxiety/hypersexuality control you. Just because you indulge in toxic addictions doesnt mean you'll act out, but definetly, try to overcome it. Canopy is a really good app to use to block corn addiction. Also, try to become more familiar with your anxiety. Think of it as a city that youre trying to learn the streets, to prevent you from getting lost. It will really help in the long run. I highly recommend to try to overcome the addiction, because It will help a lot with OCD