It hurts so much, so much pain, I want to give up, I feel like both conditions make each other worse, trying to fight back, trying so hard not to look for answers but this makes it so hard, I just..feel like I have very little hope, I'm so......so tired.
As someone who has OCD and depression too; I completely relate to the feeling of hopelessness, pain, and wanting to give up. While my experience is different from yours. I know what it feels like to feel hopeless, in pain, and wanting to give up. When I feel this way I’m constantly reminded by my therapist and psychiatrist to practice self care. (e.g. talk to someone you trust, journal, draw, meditate, walk in nature, take a hot bath or shower, watch a comfort show or movie (that is not triggering). Trust me I know it can be hard to practice self care when in this head space. And you don’t have to do a bunch of things all at once. Maybe just pick one thing to start and see how you feel. In my experience it can be a good way to distract myself from intrusive thoughts and prevent me from ruminating and doing compulsions. I hope this is helpful. Know that you’re not alone. Your OCD does not define you. You’re on this Earth for a reason.
Hello there, I promise you I know how hard it feels to keep going. OCD and depression are exhausting in every way. But even through the pain my friend I promise you there is hope and please be gentle with yourself sometimes we even need a rest from the fight. I’m not telling you what to do but some examples for me are…Go to Starbucks or your favorite shop and just walk through it. Go outside and put your feet in the dirt. Close your eyes and listen to the wind or the birds. Even just something simple like change your socks and feel the clean fabric on your toes. Depression and OCD put you in the darkest of dark places and I am still working my way out too and there are hard days but I promise there are good days ahead too. It won’t consume you forever.
Big hug to you. Depression and OCD can really play into eachother. It's exhausting. I experience both as well. Remember that with OCD, looking for answers is what keeps us stuck. ERP therapy helps us break free. And there is always hope. It's so valid to doubt that, and to wonder if it will ever really get better. It can. You are not alone, and I am here if you need to talk with someone who gets it.
OCD and depression can be a difficult mix, but it's not uncommon. You are not alone in this. Please lean on any supports you have and consider reaching out to an OCD trained therapist to work on tackling these issues at a pace that works for you. There is hope in conquering OCD and depression.
I’ve been feeling really really depressed the past few days due to health concerns. I’ve been really feeling down like not wanting to be here anymore and it’s scaring me. I was in the doctor’s office this morning and I got a scary thought that said maybe I should just k*ll someone in here instead of k*lling myself. Then the thoughts continued… this man walked past and I thought “hurt him” I obviously wouldn’t want to hurt anyone let alone a bug on the sidewalk, but the thoughts began to overtake me and I had a panic attack. It’s still bothering me and I’m still scared it’s real and that I’m going crazy. This happens to me a lot after I watch a documentary about someone who hurt someone else. I begin to think I am somehow going to go crazy like the person in the documentary and hurt someone. Although I don’t want to .. I would never ever want to hurt anyone.
They’re getting more intense.. My mind wonders if what i’m feeling is really OCD.. what if it’s not and i’m in denial? Why is my life like this, a constant loop of fears and stress holding me back. I just want to live. To be the kind boy everyone knows. To make and be a difference. There’s sometimes I wish I could stay asleep.. to rest for a while. To hibernate all these feelings away. But I know that’s not how it works. Each tear I shed is a reminder of the hell I live every day when I open my eyes. I don’t know who I am anymore. I don’t know why I am anymore. Please someone.. advice, words of positivity, something.. I feel so alone. I’m scared. I don’t know where else to go.
Hey today I’m feeling very tired because of my OCD I’m just so tired of it. I feel I’m doing everything to get better. I disregard the thoughts, I’m trying to do things like I don’t have ocd but it doesn’t want to go away. I was doing fine for a long period of time and now I feel like I’m back a square one. It’s been almost 2 months now I’m battling with OCD and I’m just tired. Sure I have moments where it’s better than others, I also have days where I barely have OCD but I also have really bad days like today where I just don’t want to get out of bed. Last time I had a relapse it took my 4 weeks to get out of it I don’t understand why this time it takes me more. I’m starting believing that I will never feel better again. Anyway I’m gonna try to find the strength to get out of bed and to start my day. But I just wanted to share. It’s such a horrible illness.
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