OCD and depression comorbidity-this sucks

about a week ago my therapist, who is still in the process of confirming that I do have OCD, said that what I absolutely do have without a shadow of a doubt is depression. Hearing that shocked me, I didn’t feel “depressed” at all. I’ve had rough times when I can absolutely say “yah I’m depressed, this is depression” and this didn’t feel like it in any way. I even laughed about it a few times. That was until two days ago, when the diagnosis actually made sense. It was like OCD and its barrage of thoughts calmed down enough to make way for the single line of thought: “you can’t do this anymore. It’s too hard, it’s not fair that you should have to break down so many times and build yourself up over and over again. Why should you even try? How can you continue living like this? It’s too cruel, just give up.” It’s a different type of torture. It makes sense that these two godforsaken mental illnesses come hand in hand. I’m struggling more than I already was. It feels like it’s all over. I’m really having a hard time with this. Although, I’m aware that OCD and depression are the most common comorbid disorders. Has anyone else dealt with this hellish cocktail? Do you mind sharing your experience with me?? I would greatly, greatly appreciate it 😅🥺

JessIsConfused

Date posted: 25w

Girl 100% they definitely go hand and hand. Same with anxiety and ocd for me as well. The most simplest way I can discribe it is this surreal, lonely feeling coupled with anxiety and shame. It is horrible it makes me want to curl into a ball and hide. Everything seems too much and to distract myself I rot in bed, I don’t take care of myself and I just wallow because it is easier for me. I am definitely not as bad as I used to be and sure ocd comes back a bit sometimes but it gets easier, the feeling fades and you are able to just be without that feeling. I am still learning better habits when taking care of myself, it is so easy to just give up and rot in bed but I am learning and that is what is important

Anonymous

Date posted: 25w

I completely relate and understand what it’s like to have OCD and depression at the same time. Just a few weeks ago I had an OCD flare up and felt very depressed. I’m now realizing that the two conditions were feeding off of each other. For me signing up for NOCD therapy was my first step towards feeling better. Second was practicing opposite action. Opposite action is an approach used in dialectical behavioral therapy (DBT). Just like how it sounds opposite action is when you do the opposite of what your emotions are telling you to do. In order to manage your emotions. For example, my emotions were telling me by staying in bed all day nothing bad can happen. Instead of listening to that thought I took a shower. After doing this I felt a little better. It helped distract me from my intrusive thoughts and doing any compulsion. And I felt productive and good about myself too. I’m not a therapist , psychologist, or psychiatrist, by any means. I’m just sharing what has worked for me and what I’ve learned. I hope this is helpful. You’re not alone. Your OCD and depression doesn’t define you. You’re on this Earth for a reason.

Hetalia17

Date posted: 25w

@Anonymous Thanks for the suggestion! Doing the opposite thing makes a lot of sense, I’ll give it a go!

Lean_into_th...

Date posted: 22w

OCD/Trauma/Depression

Hi everyone. I haven't posted on here in quite in some time. I'm hesitant to post but I'm battling some things that are compounding onto each other. I've had ocd since 15 I'm 30 now..I feel it's still there but much better than years ago. Currently though I'm really struggling with depression and trauma too. Atleast I believe it's trauma and my psychiatrist saw some indicators. Long story short I was in a relationship with a narcissist and I'm still recovering. I feel my nervous system is still kinda on fight or flight. I've learned that our bodies very much stores trauma. Alongside this I'm pretty critical of my appearance and my self esteem is not so great. I've been putting myself out there more and socializing but I can't shake this feeling of being stuck in an endless loop. It's hard to tell what to tackle. It's difficult for me..I don't know if ocd treatment is for me or more so trauma based therapy. I think there is some overlap..any advice or feedback would be appreciated. A side note I've done ERP in the past and I've been to treatment centers such as mclean. I feel like I need a community because I feel pretty alone but I'm having trouble putting one foot in front of the other.

sarah.ek

Date posted: 16w

Comorbidity OCD and BPD

Can anyone who is diagnosed with both OCD and BPD tell me a bit more about their experiences, especially when it comes to friendship and relationships?

Medicine2021_

Date posted: 12w

Suicidal OCD and harm OCD

I’ve recently been struggling a lot with OCD. I have had OCD for a long time I just didn’t realize it until more recently. About seven months ago I developed panic attacks one day randomly at work. I thought I was having a heart attack and went to the hospital where they told me it was just a panic attack and I assumed I would snap out and be better within a few days. However it didn’t. Here’s where it gets scary, I was staying at my then boyfriends house while dealing with blurry vision, anxiety attacks everyday, and more (unsure of what was going on). But at some point I saw my bfs (pew pew 🔫) on his table and it sent me into an anxiety attack after sudden thoughts that I was going to hurt myself with it. I begged him to put it away when I’m not looking so I didn’t know where he put it. He did. These thoughts lasted for about four days but began to go away. (I thought that was it and I would be back to normal). Unfortunately though I ended up moving back in with my family when we couldn’t get my panic attacks under control in time for me to get back to work and pay bills. However, coming home brought up a lot of trauma from when I was kid. My anxiety got worse but I didn’t have those thoughts again. About two and half months ago though, I got sick and went to the hospital where they gave me steroid pills and a steroid shot but sent me into some kind of psychiatric event. Ever since then though, I have been suffering from harm OCD, I have had moments of intense anger that I usually have to completely walk away and go on my own because of how intense they are, and it feels like it’s getting worse. Today I felt fine until about and hour and half ago where I started to dwell on the fact that my suicidal thought was influenced by my OCD and at the moment my OCD is at the worst it’s been. This caused me to get suddenly really depressed and I started crying thinking about how I can’t handle this. I then saw a post talking about how suicide rates are high for people with this form of OCD and it made me question if I am mentally strong enough to pull through this. I fear that at times I’m getting worse. I have good days but I have a lot of bad days. Unfortunately this sent me into such a bad panic attack I went over to my nanas crying about how I can’t deal with this. I took a 0.25 mg Xanax which helped calm down the panic attack portion of it but my brain is still uncomfortably active. I guess I just need hope. I’m so saddened by this. It’s like my life took a total 360 in 10 months and got even worse since the steroid shot. Idk what to do about it. I can’t stop the spiral. I talk to two different therapist weekly and start more next week, making it 5 times a week. I feel no improvements…

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