So I was enjoying some “me time” and had intrusive thoughts, but it felt like just for a second I liked it. Like I’m holding myself back from “enjoying” the thought. And the thoughts are related to things I was into when I was younger, but sometimes I feel like I might still like it even though 9/10 I wouldn’t give it a second thought. Is this common? Or is this just denial? Thanks
Remember when we use "It felt like..." we can justify anything. It is so easy for OCD to grab this - "Hey, it felt like you could have maybe sort of kind of potentially liked that!" Darn you OCD trickery!!! If you find that you get stuck in thoughts or images or urges like this and must neutralize them, then it is possible some sessions with an OCD therapist might help you. Feel free to check out our therapy network and we can help to match you to a great therapist who can assist if this is OCD or a related condition.
Hello OMW, I your video on YouTube. I would love to work with you specifically once I can afford therapy
I don’t have your exact theme but I have experience this feeling with my own themes. Like, when I have harm thoughts my body will attach sensations and then other thoughts that make me doubt everything and I have wondered what if I just enjoy violence. I hope this helps some ❤️
Yeah it’s just ocd get a reaction out of you, this feeling is false
Wondering if it's denial is usually a sign that it's your OCD thoughts! And yes, sadly this is common to worry that you may still actually like the intrusive thoughts. In my role here at NOCD I talk to people all day with OCD and I hear these sentiments a lot! I am sorry you are experiencing them. I know it's really distressing and upsetting. Remember that you are troubled by this because you *don't* like the thoughts or agree with them. That's why OCD is latching onto it.
One of the big issues is that I got exposed to adult content at a young age, so sometimes I feel like I’m still that age just for a second. Like I sometimes forget “oh yeah I’m an adult” cause I’m 20 and still live at home and can’t drive and don’t have a job. Sometimes I think my self image is a part of this
What do you do when you have a thought and you’re not sure if it’s intrusive or not? I just had one that was so strange and bad, and I can’t believe I just had it, but I’m almost afraid it’s not intrusive and there really is something wrong with me. I hate this.
I’m sharing this bc I need advice or even support from anyone who can relate. If you can’t relate and don’t think you’ll say anything helpful or kind pls don’t comment anything… I’ve been struggling with somethings that’s making me question myself. There has been moments while self pleasuring when I get intrusive thoughts, in those moments it feels like I’m enjoying or even self pleasuring myself bc of the thought. Right after I immediately have an anxiety attack and my HEART drops bc it feels terrible I feel like a disgusting monster :( ppl have told me I haven’t done a bad bc of how intense my guilt and panic are but I keep thinking that MAYBE I made a horrible decision in the moment and the guilt is just realising that it’s just wrong this doesn’t make sense to me because I’ve always told myself that I would never act on this in 1 million years and I’ve been known that these things are wrong so I’m just like constantly questioning myself these feelings and exact same situation has happened two times already I even promised myself that I wouldn’t act on anything beforehand and yeah, I still felt like I did act on my thought during my alone time I’m genuinely convinced that I’m a horrible and it’s even got into the point where I don’t wanna be here anymore and I don’t even think this is my OCD :( tbh
I struggle so bad with intrusive thoughts. They can be so bad that I'll cry because I KNOW that's not how I feel or want to do. (Too embarrassed to say what they're about) I'll constantly try to figure out why I have them, and constantly figure out what they mean, causing me to constantly circle around and around. I had to get on anxeity meds, which helped a little but the thoughts still happen. How do you help yourself with this? How do you know that you're just not some physcopath? 😅
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