POCD please someone answer

17f I was taking a bus and there was a group of children taking it too, like a kindergarten group. I tried to find a place where I thought children are not going to sit but one sat next to me anyway And the thing is that when I need to pee I become a bit physically aroused? Idk I've googled it and it's not that uncommon. Also the vibration from the bus gives me a bit of a groinal response yk since I sit on a seat which vibrates I mean I wasn't even really aroused that much it was a light sensation which was easy to ignore because I was on my phone But im scared I'm like a predator or something cause I didn't leave the bus immediately and had a groinal response when the kid was next to me I dont worry that it was the kid who was the reason of it (I mean not yet maybe I will freak out about it later) I'm just scared it's not appropriate to feel something like that while im next to a child even if he is not the reason of it But I tried to just ignore it and thought that I'm probably being dramatic After couple stops I got too anxious and got off the bus to wait to the next one which I hoped is not going to be full of kids But I'm scared that I'm a bad person and a sexual predator cause I didn't leave immediately after I had this thoughts While writing this post I got on another bus and sat at a seat but there js a child on the bus too not next to me but still not that far from me but I'm scared because of social anxiety people will look at me weirdly if I randomly change seats after I already sat but at the same time what if I'm being a pervert Like I don't even see the kid and stuff but still I'm scared am I a pervert or something Like is it predatory to be aroused near a child? Like the child is not the reason of it, u just are, and I wadnt purposely making myself aroused I just couldn't really help it But maybe I should've left the bus immediately? I mean I did but only after a couple stops because I thought that maybe is not that much of a big deal and I'm being dramatic

dee012

Date posted: 22w

I have gotten groinal responses around children whether it’s due to them triggering my ocd or just for some other reason but sometimes ive literally avoided looking in the child’s direction out of pure fear. Ocd can cause groinal responses anytime anywhere. Maybe it was caused by the child or not. Don’t engage with it or try to figure it out. It’s good u ignored it and just stayed in the seat.

emma345

Date posted: 22w

Yeah like I said I don't think it was caused by a child, Its not what I am scared of, I'm scared it's morally wrong and inappropriate to be aroused around a child. Like no mater the reason. Like you wouldn't have sex in the same room with a child the same way it would be inappropriate to be horny around them? Or not? Like I had a chance to leave the bus again but I didn't cause I thought like whatever I don't even see the kid, but maybe I should have...

Anony1314

Date posted: 22w

@dee012 Do you remind to respond to my post too? I think you liked it but didn't respond?

dee012

Date posted: 22w

@Anonymous2122 Which one was it? I tend to only like your posts to let you know you are seen and heard, and the only way I could give advice would be to reassure u so I just decide to like the post. Trust me your ok

Anony1314

Date posted: 22w

@dee012 Thank you friend. It was the most recent one.

dee012

Date posted: 22w

@emma345 The things you described are two completely different things on two different ends of a spectrum. If you had s3ggs in the same room as a child then that’s a conversation for IF that’s what happened. I’m not gonna reassure u as that will do nothing for you but only give you temporary relief But I can say I’ve gotten groinal around them, whether it’s triggered by them or something completely different. One time I got aroused from groinal response that was caused by a completely different theme of ocd and like was flexing down there but I was sitting down in a doctors office next to a family member. But somewhere in the waiting room was a child. I felt so gross and weird about this as well cause there was a child in the room but how will I ever know if what happened was morally wrong?? I won’t. Millions of people would say it’s not Maybe another million would say it is Once again I suggest just letting it be. If you told me you completely got off the bus due to the groinal response I would say that is wrong (don’t let that freak you out, only because that’s avoidance and I don’t think you should avoid transportation due to your ocd) Hope this helps I am rushing to type

emma345

Date posted: 22w

@dee012 Idk... like yk it's not like I didn't have an option to leave the bus immediately, I just thought that it's whatever and continued being here after getting a groinal It's one thing to have a groinal response around a child and immediately leave cause u can't control it, but if u have it and stay near the kid it's a choice at this point and I made a horrible one. Cause before getting off the bus I sat for like 5 minutes cause I thought that maybe it's not that serious like who cares

dee012

Date posted: 22w

@emma345 That’s what you’re supposed to do with erp, sit with the groinal and just let it be.

emma345

Date posted: 22w

@dee012 I'm not sure it was only a groinal like sorry for details I guess but I was a bit horny physically from the beginning like I said in the post but tbh usually it's easy to ignore this sensation if I dont think of it... but I did... and the child was next to me. I feel like I should've left the bus immediately but I didn't and that was a horrible mistake

Idontknow

Date posted: 17w

Pocd

I’m scared I might become a r*pist I’m over here thinking at a time I saw a kid and I looked down at his pants like I keep thinking about what I did and it’s like I feel attracted and to me it felt like I gave him this predator look and he probably thinks I’m a P I just wonder how is this Pocd Because it feels like I want to do stuff like I don’t know I keep thinking about that situation

lissamls

Date posted: 14w

pocd? help

i've been very sad these days, i saw a child on TikTok and i had thoughts calling her hot, it seemed like i liked it and i was very anxious and very scared. i cried a lot, i kept replaying the video several times because it seemed like i was attracted to her and only when i was sure that I wasn't attracted to her i skip the video. but then i went to watch the videos of this kid again to see if i was really attracted or not again and i got nervous about being attracted to her "chest" and i kept looking to see if I was really attracted or not 😭 i wasn't, but one thought scared me a lot, which was "you were only attracted because it looked like an adult's chest." i was very nervous, i cried a lot because of this. I'm not attracted to children, I never have been, why does it seem like i am? i don't want to look at children anymore, im too nervous. i'm not attracted to her, all of this makes me sick and sad, it's all very uncomfortable and scary. but I've been questioning myself a lot about the last thought, i can't stop questioning myself. every time i see a child my brain asks if i'm attracted to them or if i think they're pretty. i can't stop crying (sorry for any mistakes I'm using a translator)

Purvi

Date posted: 12w

POCD help

I'm posting something after a long. I have multiple Ocd themes and my main themes of sexual ocd is incest Ocd and Hocd and POCD has never been so active but today something happened that has been bothering me for a while. I was traveling in a bus and there I saw a kid/young teen. When I saw him, I instantly found him so attractive and then BOOM.. I started feeling like I'm attracted to him. I felt confused. I literally found him attractive and also thought that he would look really fine after growing up his face was so attractive but I don't want to be into him at all. I feel like I'm so much into him. I'm feeling very bothered by this feeling. I feel like I'm in denial and I should accept my attraction towards him. I don't want to feel this way at all. I don't understand what to do, how to figure out this feeling. I'm 99% sure that there was an underlying attraction I felt when I looked at him and realized that he is good looking. I feel like dying from inside and extremely confused. He's not in my bus now and I feel urges to just see him once to finally figure out that I'm into him or not but he is not here. I think I'm a pedophile which I don't want to be and everything is finished now, nothing would be same in my mind because I'm so paranoid and feeling like I'm into him. Please somebody help me and let me know if anyone of you has ever felt this way having POCD.

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