Anonimus ME 🦋

Date posted: 19w

I can't do it anymore and I don't trust myself..😞

I can't anymore.. Erp is very traumatic for me. It's about a sexual topic, and I come out with those scenes in my head, as well as photos of that person where their face makes me think of sexual grimaces. Every time, but every time during practice, I get detailed scenes and groinal. To me it looks like real sexual excitement, and I don't know exactly how to be immune to something that is sex in itself! I don't believe it's part of ocd at all..because it won't come off me and I can't believe it's not me

mental Warrior

Date posted: 19w

I'm rooting for you to get better ...I get it 100% Sexual related OCD is just horrible !

Anonimus ME 🦋

Date posted: 19w

@mental Warrior did you have something like that? If you did, did you manage to get over it somehow and believe it was ocd? Today, I really feel that I have no strength or will... I'm desperate...

Anonimus ME 🦋

Date posted: 19w

@mental Warrior don't think like that, we'll get through it together...❤️...we're all here..

mental Warrior

Date posted: 19w

@Anonimus ME🫥 Bruh mine is bad! Like idk how anything can change at this point it's horrible

Anonimus ME 🦋

Date posted: 19w

@mental Warrior many have succeeded, and we will. We just have to somehow find a way that suits us, I don't even know myself... I feel the same, but somehow there must be a way to believe in ourselves..

andrea_sam730

Date posted: 19w

I’m so sorry you’re struggling right now but I want you to remember OCD will get as real as it can get and convincing and make it believe and feel like it’s who you are but it’s not the fact that is a bothering you so much just tells me a lot Your first is pretty horrifying but eventually the bully will start to quiet down when you stop learning how to engage with those horrible thoughts. It will take time and practice a lot because you are trying to literally rewire your brain and the way that you’re thinking hang in there love keep doing great proud of u !

Anonimus ME 🦋

Date posted: 19w

@andrea_sam730 thank you dear, reassurance is sometimes good to hear, but did you go through that too? do you know how a person convinces himself that it's not true, because it seems very real to me... I don't believe it's ocd anymore...

Anonymous

Date posted: 19w

@Anonimus ME🫥 why do you think it's not ocd anymore?

Anonimus ME 🦋

Date posted: 19w

@Anonymous because I really feel some sexual excitement, and the details, and because I never feel when I do the analysis "it's irrelevant"... it really feels like a piece of some "fantasy".

andrea_sam730

Date posted: 19w

@Anonimus ME🫥 Also, I’m so sorry I probably shouldn’t give any reassurance but I just wanted to be helpful as much as I could but yes I completely know how you feel like with my episodes. I honestly always tell my friends like this just seems way too real for it to be OCD like there’s no way like this time it feels different But then again OCD will get as real as it can get to convince you that this is who we are as people

Anonimus ME 🦋

Date posted: 19w

@andrea_sam730 thank you very much, every word means a lot to me.. especially when someone who knows how terrible it is speaks.. Literally, it feels so real it scares me. Especially because it's a sexual topic and that in itself is something that the brain reacts to... And yet I keep expecting it to become repulsive...

Justin E

User type: OCD Conqueror

Date posted: 19w

Are you doing this with a therapist?

Justin E

User type: OCD Conqueror

Date posted: 19w

If possible start with something that’s lower on your anxiety hierarchy.

Anonimus ME 🦋

Date posted: 19w

@Justin E well it's already quite low..but that's what bothers me...yes, with a conversation with a therapist, of course..

Justin E

User type: OCD Conqueror

Date posted: 19w

@Anonimus ME🫥 It sounds like when it comes to breaking the cycle with compulsions you are having trouble just sitting with the uncertainty

Anonimus ME 🦋

Date posted: 19w

@Justin E nicely said. I definitely get stuck there and can't let go... and since that feeling is happening to me, I can't believe that ocd did it all..

Anonimus ME 🦋

Date posted: 17w

I know we're all bad here, but today I'm really stuck..

does it also happen to you that during exposure to erp you can imagine that act and scene in detail, and feel some confused excitement that leaves you stressed because it is hard to believe that it is part of OCD, it seems so real! When i can imagine it in detail and feel it like i can actually get arousel about it.

Anonimus ME 🦋

Date posted: 16w

Sex and ocd!

What irritates me the most is that during intimacy with my husband, it happens that OCD puts an image and scene in my head, my sister or someone for whom my OCD is attached and it's literally as if that intimacy is happening with that person, and it seems real that I can and it's exciting! I'm working on ERP during that, but it's still hard to digest... I don't know if it's the same for you?

Anonimus ME 🦋

Date posted: 13w

Is this a compulsion? I need your help ❤️

I already wrote about this and you really helped me, but now I wondered?! During the erp, I look at a picture of that person with some grimaces that the brain sexualizes, otherwise I have incest ocd! The person is of my gender, I'm not gay otherwise. And then, based on those facial expressions, the brain creates sexual images in my head, which I often feel as sexual and mental arousel. It is enough to see the picture or hear the voice of that person! Based on the pictures it gives me the idea of sexually touching myself on it and climaxing while watching. I feel an urge (I tried something like that a few times ago and now I'm afraid of it), and then the exercise is over, but I stay until I get the answer I want and the feelings that would calm me down, but that happens less and less... Have you had any experience, and is it a compulsion? how can I stay after exercise with that feeling of reality.. Thank you in advance❤️

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