Hey guys, haven’t used this app in a while because my ocd hasn’t been there at all and I’ve felt great! Today sadly I think it’s made a reappearance (at least I think it’s ocd). I broke up with my ex a little over a month ago, and I’m seeing a new guy (don’t judge I know it seems too soon but I’m really happy and my last relationship got quite toxic). I don’t hate my ex, neither of us cheated or anything just too much toxicity and arguments and it was kind of a mutual agreement to end things. Today my friend sent me a snapchat memory of a mugshot of my ex from 3 years ago. I didn’t think anything of it and I haven’t really thought about my ex as I’ve been happy in my new blossoming relationship. I told my new guy about the picture and he asked if I felt some type of way and I said not at all just annoyed that my friend sent it as it’s immature to do. And then I got to overthinking and feeling guilty for leaving my ex, feeling nostalgic, feeling guilty for moving on so quickly etc as 3 years ago I was happy with my ex. I don’t know if this means I haven’t moved on or if it’s my ocd latching on again. I’ve honestly been so happy recently and feel like myself again after ages and I hate that is is ruining it. Can someone please help.

Cactus8

Date posted: 5y

You deserve happiness. No guilt it's a part of your past you're allowed to feel at least a little something. Deep breathe. Positive thinking of how far you've come and how happy you are in this present time. You got this

tasha123

Date posted: 5y

Do you think it’s my ocd latching on and ruining things? Or is what I’m feeling normal idk anymore

Cactus8

Date posted: 5y

@tasha123 I think it is your ocd latching on. I find it aswell when I'm actually happy itll find things to ruin it or even if I dont care about something initially itll find things to make me care or pay attention

Molly B.

Date posted: 5y

First off I want to say I’m so so so sorry you are going through this, I truly can relate and it’s so sad that OCD gets in the way of enjoying your life and relationships. I currently am going through a relapse similar to this. I can tell you that you can find help and it’s through not seeking re assurance and giving in to the compulsion- week help from a trained professional- or at least a family member or friend who will give you the support you need that won’t feed the OCD. So so hard, but your worth it And you can do it!

tasha123

Date posted: 5y

Thank you! It’s just so annoying how my happiness can get destroyed by one little trigger. I worked so hard to get to where I am and i don’t want to be miserable again

Molly B.

Date posted: 5y

@tasha123 Your preaching fo the choir, it sucks. And I truly am so sorry. It is such a lonely place to be and you are allowed to be mad. I currently am in the same boat although the relationship that was good ended up ending and I’m crushed and having a hard time getting over it. I feel like why can’t I finally get peace and a happy relationship. Remind yourself- just because you have a thought such as- “I feel miserable now therefore I will be miserable forever no matter what.” DOES NOT make it truth. That helps me when I’m going through a tough time.

tasha123

Date posted: 5y

I hope you feel better soon too. And I know you will. We both will.

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