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- Anonymous
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- 5y ago
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- confusedconfused
- Date posted
- 5y ago
Think of this, no sensation you have ever had has ever come from anywhere but your brain. Ask anyone with health OCD and they will tell you they manifest very real symptoms. Your sensations are created by your rumination. This can be anything from your face going numb (I’ve been there) to derealization (been there) to your “groinal sensations”. That is the most reassurance I will give at the moment because it will not help you to tell you what you want to hear. But I hope that sort of makes sense to you?
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- AnonymousAnonymous
- Date posted
- 5y ago
It doesnt. I don't believe OCD is capable of forging arousal thats non concordant to your desires. Especially for a man which I am now currently. I literally cannot stop checking like I feel like an absolute fucking freak. I shouldnt be able to do these things and get these sensations but I am.....I want to die
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- lizzy123lizzy123
- Date posted
- 5y ago
I was worried something was wrong with my heart for awhile and kept having chest pains. But now i moved on from health ocd i dont have chest pains any more.
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- AnonymousAnonymous
- Date posted
- 5y ago
I'm really thankful for the advice, but I'm just noticing that people with health OCD are coming on here to comfort me and not people with POCD, meaning that I don't have OCD and that I'm just hideous
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- lizzy123lizzy123
- Date posted
- 5y ago
Also i worried about my blood pressure and when i took it it was up in stroke territory. But when i calmed down it was fine.
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- confusedconfused
- Date posted
- 5y ago
Yes I know exactly! I tell myself all the time, just obsess about your old obsessions because you know how to deal with those. But it doesnt work. OCD is only concerned with your absolute worst fear. It will take you to the limit... it will bully you into a corner. I had harm ocd before... the urges were the worst part. They were INTENSE. What sort of therapy are you doing for this? Have you just started therapy?
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- AnonymousAnonymous
- Date posted
- 5y ago
I'm on my second OCD specialized therapy session with a therapist from Dr. Steven Phillipsons team. I emailed my therapist today asking if my third therapy session could be sooner. I feel like at this point nothing will save me and that I've just become a freak...
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- the future is vegan :)the future i...
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- 5y ago
Thinking about anything sexual can cause arousal. It doesn't mean that you actually want to do it. Alright? And please do try to stop seeking reassurance because it only makes your OCD worse
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- the future is vegan :)the future i...
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- 5y ago
And especially when you're checking if you're getting aroused. If I think about let's say my right foot I'll be more aware of it and all the sensations
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- lizzy123lizzy123
- Date posted
- 5y ago
I just want you to know that that there are people who understand this terrifying condition. Its makes you feel crazy, dirty, hysterical. Trust me i get it.
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- confusedconfused
- Date posted
- 5y ago
I was convinced I had a chronic illness and I woke up daily with the feeling that there was pop rocks in my veins. I had muscle twitches that would last all day, I had head pressure that would build until I couldnt barely hear. Your brain can and does create responses. I had to accept the symptoms, not fight them. Accept that you will feel these responses. I know its the worst, believe me I get it completely.
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- AnonymousAnonymous
- Date posted
- 5y ago
But I'm so fucking scared. I want it to fucking stop. I willingly think disgusting shit because I just want an answer and I NEVER GET IT. I feel like an absolute freak and every time I check I'm overriden with guilt and shame like I've just did something disgusting which I fucking have because I'm literally thinking pedo shit to see if I get aroused. AND MY FUCKING GROIN MOVED. Like I feel so incredibly defeated I feel like I'm NEVER going to recover from this and I feel like I've normalized pedophilia to myself and I feel like I need to stop existing. This has to be some sort of sign that my life should be over by now. I can't keep doing this.
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- lizzy123lizzy123
- Date posted
- 5y ago
I struggled with pocd awhile ago.
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- AnonymousAnonymous
- Date posted
- 5y ago
Did you do the same things I did...Like check by thinking horribly disgusting thoughts to see if you get aroused nearly constantly?
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- lizzy123lizzy123
- Date posted
- 5y ago
I had dreams and everything. Didnt want to be around anyones kids.
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- confusedconfused
- Date posted
- 5y ago
Its great that you are doing that. I never sought help when I had harm ocd and I think it would have helped me so much earlier. I had POCD for a very small time. Harm OCD always felt much more real to me. But its important to remember, all OCD is the same OCD.
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- confusedconfused
- Date posted
- 5y ago
The fact that yours is POCD is simply that you are particularly disturbed by those things. Which I know is exactly what you are doubting.
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- AnonymousAnonymous
- Date posted
- 5y ago
How do you people have POCD for such small times...What the hell do yall do to get over it
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- lizzy123lizzy123
- Date posted
- 5y ago
Unfortunantly i think my theme just jumped to something else. I know thats not what you wanted to hear but with each one of us our themes are torturous to us. With every single one of them we deal with.
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- EmmaaaahhEmmaaaahh
- Date posted
- 5y ago
This is so true. I have many types of OCD from compulsive self harm to not being able to walk around the house without wearing socks and it is all equally distressing. It's hard to describe how, but yeah my theme tends to jump too. Another thing that can be tried to help you with this @Vimli is ERP. You should definitely look into it because it is the most effective form of treatment for OCD according to evidence based research. Stay strong friend!
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- lizzy123lizzy123
- Date posted
- 5y ago
Also. I know im not suppose to reassure you but, i was sexually assaulted as a child and the people who did this were never tortured about it like you are.
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- AnonymousAnonymous
- Date posted
- 5y ago
I'm sorry. You don't have to share this just to make me feel better. I'm really really sorry. I really don't want you to relive past traumas just for my sake. I promise to calm down and get some sleep.
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- EmmaaaahhEmmaaaahh
- Date posted
- 5y ago
@Vimli I think what lizzy123 is saying is that she knows people who would really sexually assault a child, and that they do not feel the pain and guilt that you do when you think about it. You are a good person and just because your OCD is telling you otherwise doesn't mean you should trust it. I know it's so hard. It is so so hard to live with this disorder because you can lose a sense of who you really are. But trust me when I say you wouldn't sexually assault a child, just as I won't actually hurt myself (even though I'm terrified that I will) I know it doesn't make the thoughts less scary but just keep in mind that your thoughts don't define you! Also don't feel bad about sharing your struggles on this forum. We are all suffering and can understand you. We really do. I hope you start feeling better soon. I know you will. Stay strong!
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- poprocks1poprocks1
- Date posted
- 5y ago
My OCD literally convinced me I had a brain tumor over the summer when I was anemic, I would obsessively google symptoms and after I googled, I truly felt them. It is just a huge glitch in your brain
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- confusedconfused
- Date posted
- 5y ago
I always thought there can be no worse than harm ocd. Like I got jealous of ppl that had any other kind. I got past the pocd quicker because it came right after I had learned so much about how to deal with the harm stuff.
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- Haunterr
- Date posted
- 6y ago
I’m not really sure how i feel. I thought i had pocd with groinal responses but I literally can’t get the arousal to go away at all. Like all day I’ve been hyper aware of how my groin feels. It’s also like during all thoughts and conversations. I know I’m worried I’m a monster and it’s making me sick but i also feel like the constant state of arousal is actually NOT POCD related but just. Something else. Can anyone else relate? It’s really hard to not focus on it.
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- rosecoloredgirl
- Date posted
- 5y ago
Help me, POCD gets triggered when I hear news or words associated with it. Recently, I saw a news where in a guy raped an 8 year old month baby. And because of curiosity and the disbelief on how .. idk people DO THAT to children, it made me sad and disgusted but also curious? How do they make their genitals fit? Images came up in my head and it disgusts me but why do i feel like i need to see or my brain tells me i have to visuals just for me to understand or stop being curious about it? Even with kiddie porn, i never want to see one bc those shit are supposed to be STOPPED, :( i love children, i love my baby cousins, it makes me sad there are people exploiting their innocence but my curiosity is making me overthink. it makes me think somehow, i do wanna see? Maybe i actually do? Out of curiousity? Like i dont want to google it because its wrong and i dont wanan give them more audiences but its just really, how? How do they do that? Where do they get the children? Are there ways we can also save them from that environment? I dont know. Imm so scared. I feel so wrong and bad for being curious and wanting to see but also torn because i also dont wanna see, i just want those perverts to burn in hell. But what if im one of them? Im a pervert? Its just so controversial :( someone please help i feel like a mean person and im horrible
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- lilli
- Date posted
- 4y ago
i need help, if ANYONE can give me guidance PLEASE. I NEED IT. im a minor, i cannot tell my parents about these intrusive thoughts im having, so i cant get a therapist, nor can i get diagnosed. im scared i am a pedophile. i experienced a groinal feeling a couple days ago when i saw a picture of a little kid. I DID NOT REALIZE IT WAS A KID AT FIRST, but i freaked out. i freaked you guys. i even unfollowed the account i saw the picture of the young cchild on. im so scared that i am a pedophile. i cant live like this. what if i am but im i denial? i cant do it. ive experienced something like this before. i had a thought and obsessed about it about it. but i even think back, what if i wasnt obsessing? i was constantly online looking for answer for the thought. i was constantly confessing the thought to my ex (the thoughts were about him) and im just terrified. AND THEN, I HAVE THOUGHTS THAT SAY “you are a p*do and thats okay” BUT I DONT WANT TO THINK ABOUT THAT. I DONT WANT TO THINK LIKE THAT. i just want to be a normal teen. i wanna be worry free. i dont want to be a pedo. i wannt be happy. please any guidance you can give me i need it. does it sound like POCD to the people who have experienced OCD? or am i in denial. i cant live with myself being a pedo.
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