Anonymous
- Date posted
- 5y
confusedconfused
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- 5y
Think of this, no sensation you have ever had has ever come from anywhere but your brain. Ask anyone with health OCD and they will tell you they manifest very real symptoms. Your sensations are created by your rumination. This can be anything from your face going numb (I’ve been there) to derealization (been there) to your “groinal sensations”. That is the most reassurance I will give at the moment because it will not help you to tell you what you want to hear. But I hope that sort of makes sense to you?
AnonymousAnonymous
- Date posted
- 5y
It doesnt. I don't believe OCD is capable of forging arousal thats non concordant to your desires. Especially for a man which I am now currently. I literally cannot stop checking like I feel like an absolute fucking freak. I shouldnt be able to do these things and get these sensations but I am.....I want to die
lizzy123lizzy123
- Date posted
- 5y
I was worried something was wrong with my heart for awhile and kept having chest pains. But now i moved on from health ocd i dont have chest pains any more.
AnonymousAnonymous
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- 5y
I'm really thankful for the advice, but I'm just noticing that people with health OCD are coming on here to comfort me and not people with POCD, meaning that I don't have OCD and that I'm just hideous
lizzy123lizzy123
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- 5y
Also i worried about my blood pressure and when i took it it was up in stroke territory. But when i calmed down it was fine.
confusedconfused
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- 5y
Yes I know exactly! I tell myself all the time, just obsess about your old obsessions because you know how to deal with those. But it doesnt work. OCD is only concerned with your absolute worst fear. It will take you to the limit... it will bully you into a corner. I had harm ocd before... the urges were the worst part. They were INTENSE. What sort of therapy are you doing for this? Have you just started therapy?
AnonymousAnonymous
- Date posted
- 5y
I'm on my second OCD specialized therapy session with a therapist from Dr. Steven Phillipsons team. I emailed my therapist today asking if my third therapy session could be sooner. I feel like at this point nothing will save me and that I've just become a freak...
the future is vegan :)the future i...
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- 5y
Thinking about anything sexual can cause arousal. It doesn't mean that you actually want to do it. Alright? And please do try to stop seeking reassurance because it only makes your OCD worse
the future is vegan :)the future i...
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- 5y
And especially when you're checking if you're getting aroused. If I think about let's say my right foot I'll be more aware of it and all the sensations
lizzy123lizzy123
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- 5y
I just want you to know that that there are people who understand this terrifying condition. Its makes you feel crazy, dirty, hysterical. Trust me i get it.
confusedconfused
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- 5y
I was convinced I had a chronic illness and I woke up daily with the feeling that there was pop rocks in my veins. I had muscle twitches that would last all day, I had head pressure that would build until I couldnt barely hear. Your brain can and does create responses. I had to accept the symptoms, not fight them. Accept that you will feel these responses. I know its the worst, believe me I get it completely.
AnonymousAnonymous
- Date posted
- 5y
But I'm so fucking scared. I want it to fucking stop. I willingly think disgusting shit because I just want an answer and I NEVER GET IT. I feel like an absolute freak and every time I check I'm overriden with guilt and shame like I've just did something disgusting which I fucking have because I'm literally thinking pedo shit to see if I get aroused. AND MY FUCKING GROIN MOVED. Like I feel so incredibly defeated I feel like I'm NEVER going to recover from this and I feel like I've normalized pedophilia to myself and I feel like I need to stop existing. This has to be some sort of sign that my life should be over by now. I can't keep doing this.
lizzy123lizzy123
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- 5y
I struggled with pocd awhile ago.
AnonymousAnonymous
- Date posted
- 5y
Did you do the same things I did...Like check by thinking horribly disgusting thoughts to see if you get aroused nearly constantly?
lizzy123lizzy123
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- 5y
I had dreams and everything. Didnt want to be around anyones kids.
confusedconfused
- Date posted
- 5y
Its great that you are doing that. I never sought help when I had harm ocd and I think it would have helped me so much earlier. I had POCD for a very small time. Harm OCD always felt much more real to me. But its important to remember, all OCD is the same OCD.
confusedconfused
- Date posted
- 5y
The fact that yours is POCD is simply that you are particularly disturbed by those things. Which I know is exactly what you are doubting.
AnonymousAnonymous
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- 5y
How do you people have POCD for such small times...What the hell do yall do to get over it
lizzy123lizzy123
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- 5y
Unfortunantly i think my theme just jumped to something else. I know thats not what you wanted to hear but with each one of us our themes are torturous to us. With every single one of them we deal with.
EmmaaaahhEmmaaaahh
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- 5y
This is so true. I have many types of OCD from compulsive self harm to not being able to walk around the house without wearing socks and it is all equally distressing. It's hard to describe how, but yeah my theme tends to jump too. Another thing that can be tried to help you with this @Vimli is ERP. You should definitely look into it because it is the most effective form of treatment for OCD according to evidence based research. Stay strong friend!
lizzy123lizzy123
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- 5y
Also. I know im not suppose to reassure you but, i was sexually assaulted as a child and the people who did this were never tortured about it like you are.
AnonymousAnonymous
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- 5y
I'm sorry. You don't have to share this just to make me feel better. I'm really really sorry. I really don't want you to relive past traumas just for my sake. I promise to calm down and get some sleep.
EmmaaaahhEmmaaaahh
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- 5y
@Vimli I think what lizzy123 is saying is that she knows people who would really sexually assault a child, and that they do not feel the pain and guilt that you do when you think about it. You are a good person and just because your OCD is telling you otherwise doesn't mean you should trust it. I know it's so hard. It is so so hard to live with this disorder because you can lose a sense of who you really are. But trust me when I say you wouldn't sexually assault a child, just as I won't actually hurt myself (even though I'm terrified that I will) I know it doesn't make the thoughts less scary but just keep in mind that your thoughts don't define you! Also don't feel bad about sharing your struggles on this forum. We are all suffering and can understand you. We really do. I hope you start feeling better soon. I know you will. Stay strong!
poprocks1poprocks1
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- 5y
My OCD literally convinced me I had a brain tumor over the summer when I was anemic, I would obsessively google symptoms and after I googled, I truly felt them. It is just a huge glitch in your brain
confusedconfused
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- 5y
I always thought there can be no worse than harm ocd. Like I got jealous of ppl that had any other kind. I got past the pocd quicker because it came right after I had learned so much about how to deal with the harm stuff.
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