Have you ever had a thought about sexual taboo topics, when you have a person for whom ocd is attached, that you think "maybe that person wants that, that's the way he looks at me or what do I know" what if that person wanted it, and you feel an urge to do something about it, you say or what do I know?
Thank you for reaching out and sharing this experience. Itās understandable that thoughts like these, especially when they seem to involve others or come with an urge, can be deeply unsettling. Many people with OCD find that their condition can generate intense, unwanted thoughts about taboo topics and create a lot of internal conflict and doubt. If youāre struggling and need more assistance, remember that help is available. Please donāt hesitate to reach out to us at NOCD to find out how we can support you. Also here are some helpful resources: https://www.treatmyocd.com/what-is-ocd/common-fears/fear-of-someone-reading-your-mind https://www.treatmyocd.com/blog/do-you-have-unacceptable-unwanted-thoughts-you-are-not-alone/ https://www.treatmyocd.com/what-is-ocd/common-fears/why-do-i-stare-at-people-so-much-a-therapists-advice
@Felix Murad thank you. Do you think this is also part of OCD? Projection onto others in the sense that thoughts go in that direction "what if that person also wants that, what would happen if it really happened, what if they provoke me"?! And it's about taboo intrusive sexual thoughts? And with that, it's like I feel the urge to tell that person, ask or I don't know...
@Anonimus MEš«„ - Yes; It's understandable to feel distressed by these thoughts and the urges you describe. Many with OCD experience intrusive thoughts about taboo topics that feel very real, sometimes involving projections. The urge you feel might be linked to the anxiety and the need to resolve uncertainty, a common feature of OCD. These experiences don't define you. If youāre struggling and need more assistance, remember that help is available. Please donāt hesitate to reach out to us at NOCD to find out how we can support you. Also here are some helpful resources: https://www.treatmyocd.com/what-is-ocd/common-fears/fear-of-someone-reading-your-mind https://www.treatmyocd.com/blog/do-you-have-unacceptable-unwanted-thoughts-you-are-not-alone/ https://www.treatmyocd.com/what-is-ocd/common-fears/why-do-i-stare-at-people-so-much-a-therapists-advice
Yes, definitely. When it is especially strong, it starts casting the same doubt in everyone. It is horrible! Ive finally started to get better and having more days where I can see the better side of myself and others. Slowly but surely. Remind yourself they are just thoughts, and they are upsetting because you are a good person! Once I came to that realization they started having less power, and less reason to stick around.
@Anonymous thank you. and well done. I'm so glad to hear you're better. I pray for all of us always... It literally bothered me, like ok it's clear that I have perverted flashes because of OCD, but when she turns to me and says "but maybe that person wants it or would enjoy it, or she thinks it and what if I tell her", and the person is the same sex, and blood related, so I get horrified by it...and I'm like what is this now...
@Anonimus MEš«„ The power of our imagination working against us can be extremely upsetting, absolutely. Definitely still OCD- it is trying to find more ways to scare you by going down the rabbit hole of 'what ifs'. Could also be a compulsion to see 'what if' I dont have a reaction to this/that thought? Ive been there. It is horrible. I would try to remember the root of it is fear, and the thoughts stick around because they are scary, nothing more. It's a cycle of fear response-thoughts- fear response. And with OCD you start anticipating those thoughts (out of fear) which in turn empowers them. Im slowly getting better by rebuilding my self esteem/worth and values which have lessened their power.
@Anonymous what you say makes sense. I want to believe that, but it seems that this is stronger.. I've been fighting for a long time and it's not easy at all...
Yes Iāve had this for sure. Iāve had fears other people were perverted in ways and if I didnāt stop it theyād hurt someone. I think it falls under Responsibility OCD
@SodaPoppies well, not really, more like "what if that person thinks as perversely about me as I do about her and wants it" and then I imagine that scene...horror.. It's certainly very similar to yours, only for me it's like this...
Sorry you have to deal with that... I think you're too fixated on the fact whether yours intrusive thoughts are normal/common/do others also have these thoughts or not. Maybe the root cause of it is the uncertainty about being normal or accepted. I strongly believe that the content of thoughts and its 'uniqueness' are not important att all. They just thoughts, they don't exist in physical form.
@genicrop09 thank you for that. You are indeed right. I think if only I have such things, maybe it's not OCD after all... that's how I specifically feel.. Thanks for your concern and this kind of answer!
Trying not to seek reassurance, but rather connect the dots on my OCD and possible reasons as to why I am the way I am. I have severe OCD (or at least I hope I do) mainly surrounding POCD. I've had symptoms of OCD the majority of my life but this theme has come up more recently. When I was a kid, and i'm talking 6-7, I was first exposed to some really gross adult content online. It was introduced to me by a friend of mine around the same age of me. I saw some really disgusting things that a 6-7 year old should definitely not see. This was not a one time occurrence, as I had been exposed to taboo topics online years to come after that, such as the same friend introducing me to Omegle... And i'm sure you can imagine how that went, theres a lot of genuinely disgusting human beings on there. Coming back to the reason for making this post; is it possible to early exposure to this content could be one of the reasons I struggle with POCD? It genuinely scares me to death because you hear that real p*dos dealt with simular situations when they were kids, so thats kind of making me feel that this could be more than OCD, and I could be a genuinely bad person. My POCD feels so real, that at times i'm fully convinced its not OCD. Sometimes I can't even distinguish the feelings of attraction between a younger person and an older person, except for the feeling of anxiety and fear. Its really hard to explain without going into detail, but it just feels so real. Some feedback on this would be great, thank you all.
Thereās something that happens that keeps me stuck in a thought, itās when I can see some part of myself agreeing with or relating to it in some way. Thatās when the doubt creeps in. If I can understand *why* the thought is there, doesnāt that mean itās not just random? Doesnāt that mean it actually reflects something about me? For example **(TMI/TW)**: I had the thought, *āI wonder what other peopleās kinks are (including friends, family, even teenagers).ā* And then I caught myself thinking, *āWell, I guess that could be interesting informationā¦ maybe I wouldnāt even stop someone from sharing it with me. Does that mean I actually want to know? Waitādoes that make me perverted or incestuous for even having this curiosity?ā* The same thing has happened with other thoughts, like wondering what someoneās privates might look like. I recognize that, on some level, that could be interestingābut does that mean the thought is truly mine? Maybe the answer is super obvious and I just canāt see through my OCD smoke. This was a bit embarrassing for me to write š„², but can anyone provide some insight?
(20f) I have been dealing with severe OCD symptoms for as long as I can remember. I recently got diagnosed about a year ago, and even though I know that these thoughts are probably my ocd, I still cant shake them. Growing up I was always very sexually curious. I was sheltered from a lot of things, as I went to a private school and things like sexuality and sex were never talked about. I remember doing some weird sexual things growing up (never affecting another person), looking up taboo sexual things, etc. I always seemed to become aroused no matter what the situation was, even if I just saw someone getting changed. I have no recollection of being SA'd, so i'm wondering where this all came from? Was I just curious and wanted to experiment and try different things? Or am I really a pervert, pedophile, etc. I have all these thoughts racing through my head and it's killing me. Everything I did as a kid I look back on and am disgusted, as those don't align with my views at all today. I never thought growing up thinking these things were wrong, or actually realize what they were until I got older. I'd like to think it was just my curiosity, but i'm not sure. What if i'm in denial and actually do like these things? I just need to know if theres something wrong w me, I cant keep going on like this. Could really use some advice.
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