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Like always, porn has been a problem and I spent the entire night watching it. I feel tons of shame for things I've seen without intending to see, and I feel shame about struggling with it altogether. I kind of feel like crying but not that much. I'm just trying my absolute best to practice acceptance and not judge myself. I'm just trying to see this as a problem that others struggle with as well and not put myself down for it over and over again. I know that doesn't help in the long run, but it's hard not to feel that way.

Julian2006

User type: OCD Conqueror

Date posted: Yesterday

I’ve struggled with porn usage too! From a real young age, I was in horrible online spaces that I’m thankful to be away from, but haunted by what I’ve seen and witnessed that was normalized. We are not a product of our environment, we are better than those things!

YouWillSurvive

Date posted: Yesterday

True!!!! It's amazing just how many young people got exposed to it.

Julian2006

User type: OCD Conqueror

Date posted: Yesterday

@YouWillSurvive Truly! I’ll never allow myself to be in such a degenerate environment again.. I was influenced before, but not anymore! I’m taking back my life, one step at a time 💜

Anonymous

Date posted: Yesterday

Well I have an advice for you you should not stop completely but limit the the time your watching it like and don't feel ashamed it's normal But if you limit your time to certain time you will find your self not watching it much and you will feel better trust me don't feel shame just follow my steps and you Will be okay My love 😊

BigGyro09

Date posted: Yesterday

Doesn't feel like anything works but I also feel like I'm just not doing enough to distract myself from it

YouWillSurvive

Date posted: Yesterday

Brother you ARE NOT ALONE. I know EXACTLY what you're probably feeling, I've been there...still am! Porn is a bitch, it's so hard to get over. Porn absolutely hijacks our natural desire for sex, especially for men I believe, but porn skews a healthy sexuality and view of sex really far out...do whatever you can to stop watching it. The sooner the better! I can promise you that's the best decision. You won't regret it...it's hard to stay away from it because EVERYTHING is so sexualized now but you can do it. It's all about LITERALLY healing your mind. Try your best, you aren't alone.

BigGyro09

Date posted: Yesterday

Been trying to do that for a decade now, it's hard. I haven't given up completely though there were times where I did give up in small parts

User type: Therapist

Date posted: Yesterday

I'm sorry to hear you're struggling with this. It's understandable to feel shame, but it's important to remember that many people face similar challenges. You're not alone, and it's commendable that you're trying to practice acceptance and self-compassion. A therapist can help explore why this is happening and ways to help. If you’d like additional support, feel free to book a free call with our NOCD team. We’d be happy to share more information and explore ways to help. No one has to live in fear of their own thoughts. Also here are some helpful resources: https://www.treatmyocd.com/my-ocd-journey/healthy-control-of-my-life-and-happiness https://www.treatmyocd.com/blog/porn-and-mental-health/ https://www.treatmyocd.com/what-is-ocd/common-fears/i-watched-incest-porn-is-there-something-wrong-with-me-what-therapists-say

Skolvikings

Date posted: Yesterday

It helps some people to remember that the person you're looking at is a real person. I've heard praying (if you do that) for the person in screen can really help. Try to focus on things that make the people in porn, human. "What did they have for breakfast?" "Are they an only child?" Etc. Ask yourself humanizing questions about the person/ people you see. It's easy to consume when you dehumanize but if you start to imagine them as real people, I've found it helps. You're not alone. I hope you find community here and outside of here. I think positive real relationships can help.

BigGyro09

Date posted: Yesterday

This helps but also makes me feel a lot worse because of how true it is. I try not to find people that don't sexualize themselves and only those that do and aren't afraid to do so, but the people that don't do they show up in search results anyway. It's just been hard to completely break away from all of this. It just keeps finding a way to come back. There's nothing that truly makes it go away

8278883710

Date posted: Yesterday

Me too bro, me too..

Self aware

Date posted: 23w ago

High anxiety and perfectionism

I have sent nudes before when I was younger and I am really struggling with the fact that I have sent them because it makes me feel like I am such a bad person and I don’t deserve certain things. I try my hardest to be a good person and do the right things but I obviously have made lots and lots of mistakes. I cannot get over these mistakes I’ve made because I judge myself so hard for them and it’s making it hard to function.

Holly117

Date posted: 20w ago

Girls that have struggled with porn

Sorry if this is a bit of an odd post, but I’m wondering if there are any girls out there that have specifically struggled with shame around watching porn? A lot of my real-event ocd stems from watching that kind of content in the past, and for some reason it feels particularly taboo as a woman. As a young teen, I saw some genuinely disturbing things, and I think a lot of that was to do with having unrestricted access to the internet. However, despite lots of people telling me “that’s normal teen curiosity” it just never feels like it applies to me, and that I’m genuinely just a sexual deviant. I think because that kind of content is so graphic and overstimulating it’s really stuck in my brain, and I just wish I could turn back the clock and switch off the computer. I’ve recently been struggling with doing typical ‘girly’ stuff because I feel tainted and gross, and I just want to get back to feeling myself again.

Holly117

Date posted: 19w ago

Past porn use “what if’s”

I’m really struggling right now. My mind is racing and I’m panicking about the content that I watched in the past because I don’t have a way to ‘prove’ that it was safe and consensual. I stupidly caved in and googled “what happens if an accidentally saw illegal porn” and I ended up making my anxiety so much worse. What if the images I saw in the past had underage people in them? Am I going to jail? Will my ip address be tracked? My brain is making all sorts of scenarios up and they feel so real. At this point I don’t know if I’m a bad person or not, I just feel like something terrible is about to happen. Although I know I’d never intentionally look for that kind of stuff there’s still a chance that I could have seen things without realising, and I actually don’t know what to do. I’m in total panic mode

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