PLEASE help

im getting so annoyed i cant stop thinking about time and death and everything how do i stay present and cope literally almost everything is triggering me its been weeks it feels like everything is moving so slow yet so fast and i can feel every second and i keep getting random memories of things i usually wouldn’t even remember they aren’t bad but its just another reminder of time passing and the only thing that helped just enough is xanax but i cant keep taking it every day cause i dont wanna get addicted i need like natures xanax or something how do i produce the same effect a xan gives without taking one for the love of god bro as soon as i think its getting better i start spiraling an hour later and wont be able to stop and its making me feel like i need to go to a psych hospital or something but then i feel like what if im not bad enough to go to one

Daniel Paz

Date posted: 2d ago

I would recommend that you ground yourself with meditation and self soothe yourself. Breathe in for 4 seconds, hold for 4 seconds, then release for 4 seconds. Keep doing that for 5-10 minutes if needed. Added bonus is to grab some ice and hold it in your hand. This keeps the mind in the present moment, so you no longer are spiraling into your triggers. These are not permanent or long term solutions but just enough to stay present as you ride through your thoughts. I hope this helps for now.

FearAndLoathing

User type: OCD Conqueror

Date posted: 2d ago

I am dealing with this theme right now too. I would look up the 4 step process for dealing with OCD. It’s not a replacement for therapy but I find it helpful at times when OCD or therapy is getting to be too much.

Dee C

Date posted: 2d ago

Sorry you’re going through this. I can relate to the existential thoughts. From time to time I catch myself going down the OCD rabbit hole at which point I lean towards the uncertainty. For example the thought pops up, my kids are a figment of my imagination. My response is maybe they are/maybe they’re not. This is my OCD and I choose not to engage it. And the times when I get hugs from them, I’ll live in the present and cherish the moment with them. Please know that you are not alone.

Billy.C

Date posted: 2d ago

Have you reached out to your therapist or do you have one?

blehh

Date posted: 2d ago

@Billy.C no i have a psychiatrist and talked to her but she just upped my dosage of zoloft to 50 and told me i need to start seeing a therapist so i’m working on getting one cause i know i need one anyways but i just need relief now

Billy.C

Date posted: 2d ago

@blehh I understand. People say it’s okay to not be okay and It’s okay to ask for help, but when you need it most who do you ask and how do you ask. I would consider calling a crisis line. You don’t have to be at risk of hurting yourself to call. If you don’t want to talk they have texting lines too. I wouldn’t start ERP by yourself unless you have to because it’s hard and works best with the help of a therapist. Dialectical behavioral therapy is something you can do by yourself. It is designed to reduce intense and painful emotions. You can google DBT coping skills. The sooner you can see a therapist the better. They also have residential treatment for OCD and depression where you live there for a period of a few weeks to a month or two and do group therapy daily and individual therapy weekly and work on therapy homework. You would have to find a place that has an open bed and is covered by insurance. Good luck!

blehh

Date posted: 2d ago

@Billy.C Thank you! ive mostly been talking to my parents and they’ve been helping as much as they can but it just hasn’t been enough unfortunately and i feel like im not “bad enough” to go to one of those residential places but if this lasts any longer than 1 more week or gets worse before then i might have to force myself :/

tlousluvr

Date posted: 22w ago

advice 🧸

hi. so one big factor of my OCD is rumination. i met a guy who i have a crush on the idea of (idea bc there are red flags). my biggest fear is not finding true love, my ex told me no one else would deal with what i have (my ocd, specifically reassurance seeking and getting overstimulated after intimacy). a few weeks ago, my friends and family all gathered and tried to give me advice that sounded like “you’re shy and you’ll never find someone.” after that, i’ve felt off. i’ve been using an unhealthy coping skill, daydreaming, and i’ve just felt unbalanced. my ocd makes everything feel different sometimes, i can’t explain it. life, myself, almost like being in a dissociated state. has anyone else experienced that? i don’t know how to remain balanced during my off times and i know pms exasperates it all. i take ashwaghanda and omega 3s in a multi vitamin daily. i take them all together in the evening but i’ve missed three days recently and also messed with my rocky sleep schedule because of fun times with friends. i hope these supplements work, because i don’t know if i’d be brave enough for medication. i had a bad reaction on prozac and often am forgetful. i just have been battling my OCD consciously for almost ten years now and unconsciously for longer. i am so tired, as my mental health extends beyond my OCD. i’m in talk therapy with some cbt aspects but i only see her twice a month. i’ve broken down so many times and promised myself id get on track or that certain things would work, but it’s like i am stuck in a circle that gets smaller when i’m able to help myself. i just want to be normal. i want to be able to mess up my sleep schedule to enjoy good times and not suffer horrible consequences or fear that i will be entirely thrown off balance. i don’t want to worry or doubt or feel so dissociative that i squint my eyes for a moment and wonder why i feel so unreal. i will never understand why god has allowed me to go through this. i cannot let it be for nothing but i don’t know how much more to bend and contort my body and brain to get somewhere stable but how lovely it would be if i could. i don’t have much of a schedule right now, i get apathetic and give in with things from time to time. one thing can trigger me and i am back to square one wether in a week or month. any advice, any and all is so helpful. your stories, your thoughts. maybe feeling less alone and knowing what has helped you is exactly what i need right now. thank you 💗

sara_24

Date posted: 21w ago

Anxious about everything

Guys I need help. I feel so alone . Basically I have this compulsion where I feel the need to write everything but this stems from me being anxious about EVERYTHING. Like my mom came in my room and I was irritated and snapped, immediately regretted now I keep writing “don’t be mean to mom next time” but I keep thinking about it. Then I think about how I finally left my house today and all the surfaces I touched that could’ve been contaminated and now I’m writing “next time don’t touch this and this”. Then I think about all the things I need to be doing for this week and I’m writing “don’t forget to do this and this” even though I’ve written it 5 times already. This is what happens everyday btw. My brain always thinks about something I need to be doing and making me anxious that I’ll forget it which is why I write it down on my notes app. I’m sooo mentally exhausted I need help pls!! Anyone have any advice ? I used to think I need to stop the writing but really I need to stop the anxious thoughts coming into my head . People say I need to accept the thoughts and let it go but that’s too hard for me

catnipppp

Date posted: 20w ago

existential crisis

Really bad theme right now is death, I keep thinking about how one day or at any moment my heart will stop my brain will stop & my memories & everything I know will all fade away. It is giving me so much anxiety I’m only 18, but I realize it all happens to us it is bound, we are born to die. I know it’s a silly thing to be scared because it’s not helping the quality of my life worrying about it and even when I do die, I won’t care , if you don’t have a working brain then how can you care 🤷‍♀️. It is tainting my everyday life currently & honestly making me terribly depressed & it is giving me derealization & making me feel nihilistic, I’ll remind myself it’s okay but then with my ocd i don’t stop thinking and thinking about it and it’s seriously so hard to stay present in the moment because this thought just feels like I can’t scrub it away it’s miserable I struggle with religion, but I do pray to anything that’s out there possibly listening, because it is comforting, it just feels like this whole experience Is pointless & I am afraid of the unknown and what is to possibly happen but I’m subjected to it anyways so why should it matter

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