kind of a rough day

i’m trying to not let the thoughts bother me but it’s just so stressful. even me typing that feels like i’m lying when i know i’m not. i’m scared because even my therapist tells me that it’s just ocd, but in the back of my mind i slightly don’t believe her, and its making me scared that i AM like those people and im gonna act on something. sometimes in social moments i get a quick thought of me being an outcast because im like those people who are sick in the head and act on that stuff, and it just makes me feel like i truly am gonna eventually act on something. another thing that bothered me is earlier my mom yelled at me for not doing school work (it was well deserved im really slacking on it) and i had like no reaction to her screaming. it had me thinking what if i have no empathy etc etc, and what if i get mad that she yelled at me and i do something involving those thoughts. how do i TRULY know it’s ocd? like i try to remind myself and be like “dude, your therapist said it’s ocd, she isn’t wrong” but the back of my mind is like “she is wrong, it’s not ocd and she just happened to misdiagnose you. you are gonna act on those thoughts and it’s your fate”. please someone respond if you read all of this, im really struggling

milkydaisys

Date posted: 2d ago

You do not have to harm yourself or act on anything. If your therapist says you have ocd, I don’t think they’re wrong. Remember that you are loved by so many people and have a good life coming for you. If you feel like you have absolutely no one, Jesus has you and will protect you. The pain you’re experiencing now does not compare to the joy that’s coming!

Sjmb1995!

Date posted: 2d ago

I think a good mindset would be if you truly had no empathy and were planning to act on something, you wouldn't feel the deep shame that comes with OCD. Humans sometimes think off the wall things. Its in our nature. Unfortunaly OCD keeps us trapped in that loop and makes us think we aren't good. But I believe you are. And doing the work in therapy shows that ❤️ Sending you a big hug because I know it sucks.

SF18

User type: OCD Conqueror

Date posted: 2d ago

@samlovesjesus I’m so sorry that you’re going through such a difficult time. With OCD, it’s so easy to doubt when we are told it’s our OCD and not us. BUT that’s the thing. OCD is nicknamed, “THE DOUBTING DISORDER” for a reason. OCD wants us to keep doubting. Your therapist knows OCD, this community knows OCD. You may have bad thoughts, which is your OCD, but that does not make you a bad person. You are not your thoughts and you are not your OCD. Generally, people with OCD feel guilt and shame about their intrusive harm thoughts. It sounds like that’s where you are at. Have some compassion for yourself to be strong enough to share your story and seek out support ❤️ Everyone’s OCD journey is different but it sounds like you are ready to move forward ❤️

ocdsuxxx

Date posted: 2d ago

I feel like I’m gunna act on my harm thoughts right now too it’s scary ur not alone

cows12465

Date posted: 21w ago

please advice please!!!!

I feel like there’s no way out of this. everyday i’m anxious and depressed from these thoughts. i feel like i have to constantly question if it’s OCD or not. the panic attacks are insane and i freak out. and a compulsion i have is looking eveything up on the internet when im stressing to know that it’s just my OCD and im not in danger. but looking things up add on to my thoughts and i start thinking “what if” actual suidcal people think. do others with this theme whenever they do something like if im taking a picture it’ll be like “yeah you look happy people will wonder what happened when your gone” LIKE i DO NOT want to end my life. or even as simple as cleaning my room, “yup keep it clean so when your family goes through your stuff” then i panic and can’t even do anything. those thoughts distress me so bad. i’ll sit there and think how good my life is or when im having a good day my thoughts will be like “NOPEEE what if your just saying that to convince yourself” it never shuts up and genuinely makes me think i have SI or something. i hope this reaches the right people just to know im not alone. Even when i do get better in the back of my mind it’s always “people who want to are the same a day before too” im genuinely scared and im scared one day im going to just snap and do it because its “too much” do i need to go to a mental hospital! i feel insane.

nevieocal

Date posted: 9w ago

Can someone please help me?

I think when people are saying OCD is egodystonic is really triggering me and I was just wondering if this has happened to anyone else? I’m going through a really bad relapse and right now I’m trying to figure out if my thoughts are truly egodystonic, like I how do I know I won’t act on them, how can I trust my emotions and everything. I feel really confused and I feel like I don’t know who I am anymore or how I carry on with life because it’s so long and I’m so unsure of everything that’s going on in my head. Like how do I know that this is OCD and true desires/urges. I’m so confused.

alyssa_h

Date posted: 7w ago

i can’t do this much longer

i’m having a full on panic attack, i never used to be like this, what tf is happening to me, why am i like this, i’m so convinced i’m a horrible person and i deserve to be shut out forever because of my thoughts, i’m tired of struggling with harm ocd, i’m scared that because i have mental health issues i’m gonna end up ki!!ing someone someday or end up on the news, when i was at work earlier i kept thinking “how easy would it be to ki!! someone and get away with it” someone help, i don’t feel normal, am i crazy?… 😭😭i know that with ocd you’re not supposed to have reassurance and you have to be “okay” with the situation but.. how am i supposed to be okay with feeling like i could hurt someone…

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