like I'm suffocating...

these days I feel particularly bad. I can't let the thoughts and those scenes be there without going deeper into it. Everything about my sister has become a trigger for me, and I have the impression that she "turns me on" and creates a big panic. I feel like I can't breathe because I don't know how to let it all go and I don't attach importance... 5 months of ERP and now this, I can't do it, I don't know it...and I don't know what else to do...

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Date posted: 12w

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Anonimus ME 🦋

Date posted: 12w

@Anonymous thank you, your support really means a lot to me...❤️ It's like I'm weak to accept all those thoughts, scenes, feelings, obstacles... but I know I shouldn't be pessimistic... but these days I've been really pressed by all that...

Anonimus ME 🦋

Date posted: 12w

@Anonymous thank you, my friend, for your support and congratulations. That I try to continue my life in parallel with this, but I guess the very fact that I am a wife, maybe one day I will also be a mother, and I have such thoughts and conditions also disappoints me, and pressures me...somehow, as someone who had this not long ago, I thought it would disappear forever, and the relapse was greater than ever.... I am with you and I give you support and the knowledge that you are not alone and you are not fighting alone❤️! I believe you..I wish so

Anonimus ME 🦋

Date posted: 12w

@Anonymous just keep going, and if you fall we're here ❤️, to keep going... thank you

Anonimus ME 🦋

Date posted: 19w

I can't do it anymore and I don't trust myself..😞

I can't anymore.. Erp is very traumatic for me. It's about a sexual topic, and I come out with those scenes in my head, as well as photos of that person where their face makes me think of sexual grimaces. Every time, but every time during practice, I get detailed scenes and groinal. To me it looks like real sexual excitement, and I don't know exactly how to be immune to something that is sex in itself! I don't believe it's part of ocd at all..because it won't come off me and I can't believe it's not me

Abuchs

Date posted: 17w

Length of episode - highly distressed please help

Hi, last year I had a trigger with my little cousin that made me spiral. Then that thought lead to another and lead to another thought and another one and so on and I've been feeling stuck (with ups and downs) over a year now. I hit rock bottom in July/August and that lead me to going to the psychiatrist. I am taking meds now, but I still feel bad. It doesn't take as much time of my life anymore but it is constantly back there in my mind. It's the feeling that I'm ignoring and undoubtable truth that soonest or later will come out, or that rejecting, or that I'm resisting. That's why it's been impossible for me to do ERP, because I think it's going to make me want to touch myself and if I do I'll feel bad. And then it feels like I like the thoughts, not only physically (groinals) but mentally??? It's like a brain fog that I can't tag between pleasure or confusion. And that thought leads me to thinking about the alleged "non-offending" ps and if that could be me. And that thought leads me to think OH MY GOD I can't BELIEVE I am a girl in my twenties obsessing over this I can't believe this is my life.

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Anonimus ME 🦋

Date posted: 12w

crisis! Help!

I decided to work ERP harder than before in everything, and to try to separate ocd from myself. However, this morning when I was talking to my sister, I felt that some of her breathing caused my groin and some arousel, and if I didn't consciously analyze it... I honestly feel really bad, because I can't connect it with ocd but with me and it makes me very nervous and I get angry... do you have any advice? experience? what's wrong with me now?

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