Angry depression

Hey sorry to hear you're struggling. I know how it feels to lash out in anger when deep down you feel anxious and depressed. It's a pretty common and understandable thing to do. We put a lot of pressure on ourselves these days, especially when you consider how complicated human life has become. For hundreds of thousands of years, our brains evolved in a world where life was much more dangerous, but also much simpler. We lived in small clans for our entire lives (meaning we really only saw 50-100 people during our *entire lifetimes*). We pretty much only had to find food, water, shelter, and maintain close bonds with our fellow clan members. That was basically life for 99% of human history. Life is much safer for us in the modern era, but at the cost of simplicity. Things are so complicated now, especially when it comes to social relationships and personal responsibility. Now that social media has taken over, life is ironically becoming increasingly individual. Rather than focusing on reliable social bonds with a small group of people who we feel safe with (like the "clans" of the old days), we quantify our relationships in follows and likes. Population has skyrocketed, but so has loneliness. Never in human history has there be so many people, yet so few "real" social bonds. My advice is to first forgive yourself for behaving the way that you have. Recognize that this is a perfectly understandable and natural reaction to feeling depressed. Be proud of yourself for recognizing this, and for wanting to change. Then it's a matter of addressing the depression, which is the body's natural reaction to feeling disconnected from those around us. Aside from therapy, the best thing you can do for yourself is figure out how you can start feeling connected again. Try to think of the smallest baby steps you can take towards that goal. Are there any clubs you can join, related to a hobby you're interested in? Are there any friends/family whom you feel comfortable opening up to a little more? Are there any support groups available to you in person or online? Or just ask yourself, "what is the smallest thing I can change about my current situation that would help nudge me in the right direction?" Forget about what this anger means about "you," and trying to solve it. Accept that this is an emotional response to the current conditions of your life, and allow yourself to feel the uncomfortable feelings. It's okay to feel this way. Once you allow yourself to feel these things, you will open the door to changing those conditions. Your goal isn't to "get rid" of the anger/depression/anxiety, but to change the conditions that are leading to them, however you can. Wishing you all the best.

Thanks for helping me understand my emotions That was so nice to be heard and understood Thanks for helping me out I appreciate it Hope you will have a wonderful day 😊all the love 😊