Can’t believe it

I’ll never forget November 10th, 2024 ,the day everything changed. It felt like my mind broke. A single, terrifying intrusive thought spiraled into a storm that made me believe I was losing my sanity. I spent hours doom-scrolling Reddit, joining Facebook groups, seeing doctor after doctor and being misdiagnosed over and over again. Then, in January, I saw an ad for NOCD. Something inside me, told me to give it a shot. I was terrified, but I committed. I showed up for myself and faced my fears through daily exposures, even when every fiber of me wanted to run. I remember reading stories of people who had overcome the same theme I was struggling with. They were conquerors and I felt like a lost cause because my progress felt slow. But I kept going. I kept showing up. I refused to let fear win. And now? I’m not perfect. Some thoughts still come and go but they no longer control me. I’m living again. I’m doing the things I never thought I’d be able to do again. If you had told me in January that I’d feel this free, I wouldn’t have believed you. To anyone who feels like they’re too far gone, you’re not. Keep showing up. Keep doing the work. Healing isn’t linear, but it is possible. And you are so much stronger than you think. The best way that kept me going was this line that i saw from an OCD YouTuber. “ ERP is like going to the gym, if you go just one day for 5 minutes you are not going to be fit and buff just with that session, you have to show up put in work and build muscle , stamina etc. “ I hope this helps to whoever is reading.