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- 4w
BrightStarsBrightStars
- Date posted
- 4w
The god knows everything about you, God knows it not you saying those things. The way you are resisting yourself, Feeling so guilty of it shows that you did not meant to say those things it's just your OCD. OCD is just, It knows the weak points of the person. Please don't be so hard on yourself, And don't hurt yourself. Trust me god knows your intentions and they are not bad at all ❤️
hi i hi i
- Date posted
- 4w
This was me 100% I learned that denying God would be unforgivable when I was 13. I spent the next few years trying NOT to curse him out or the Holy Spirit. So what did my ocd do? Torture me. Every thought was captivated with “don’t say it don’t say it don’t say it. Wait did I say it?” along with “I’m sorry God I’m so so so sorry” Absolutely exhausting. But that’s the thing, love. He KNOWS he knows your intent even if you don’t he knows you’re struggling he knows it all. I did a little research. The unforgivable sin is not a one time act. It is a continual state of not repenting. A “process of persistent rejection of Gods truth. Or dying without accepting Gods grace and forgiveness.” that is not at all what you have done or who you are. You’ve asked for forgiveness a 100 times over if not more. I know I have. You’re not going to hell because of your intrusive thoughts. And yes it’s ocd. Your ocd, your fears, your pain, Is not bigger then his love. He knows you’re hurting, go to him. Let him give you peace. Doesn’t matter if you think you deserve it or not ask him for it. May God wrap you in his loving arms❤️
hi i hi i
- Date posted
- 4w
Working through it will take time. So give yourself time. Replacing the thoughts with a word is not exactly the best thing to do but it helped me. Something with the same amount of syllables. Also I forgot to mention. Asking questions about God or the trinity is not a bad thing. Genuine curiosity is perfectly fine. How else are humans meant to learn anything? I hope you can find peace in him and let go of this guilt it is not yours to keep❤️
ivefailed.ivefailed.
- Date posted
- 4w
God knows your true intentions. You can know your true intentions by how you react to uncomfortable thoughts you think (that happen due to self sabotage), that means that such thoughts weren't beliefs, just thoughts that happened in panic, i call it intrusive maliciousness, you automatically think what you're not supposed to think and what you don't want to think or believe, it happens automatically but also it's a way for your brain to check what would happen if you said such thoughts, a way to keep in check dangers.
ivefailed.ivefailed.
- Date posted
- 4w
@dallia remember, our brain is made so that we can think of anything and believe anything, it's how we react to the moment we think or believe that has true value, for example you think or believe something but you notice how much you don't want to believe it or how much you don't like a thought? it's because it's ocd inserting intrusive bullet proof beliefs, it's because thoughts are just thoughts, feelings are not facts and the brain is an infinite thinking and feeling machine, but the proof of yourself resides how much you don't want it. i think the fact that you worry so much is because you care a lot about God, and it's proof of how much you love God and he certaintly knows that and differentiates intrusive thoughts and intrusive beliefs or compulsive self sabotaging ones from your true self
sadartistsadartist
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- 4w
Raised in a crazy Christian household, I relate to what you’re saying perfectly and I’d be happy if we would be able to have a real conversation. Stay safe, you are not horrible ❤️❤️❤️
sadartistsadartist
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- 4w
@dallia I’d love that too friend, what do we do now?
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- 10d
help me please
i'm scared of my life right now. yesterday, i really had very dark and blasphemous thoughts about Jesus, and i think i believed and agree with them. as i think about it right now, i think i smiled or felt proud of it yesterday. i wasn't even sure if i laughed, felt proud, agree, or believed it—but i think i did believe and agree with it. yesterday, i felt sick too because of a cold, and i think i'm going through depression for days, so i felt so exhausted. as i'm typing right now the phrase that i'm going through depression and felt sick yesterday, my brain says that maybe i'm just using those as an excuse to not look horrible. today, i feel so horrible because what happened yesterday is very wrong. i shouldn't believe or agree in that. Jesus is very kind and loving, so why would i agree with those blasphemous thoughts? i hate what is happening to me right now. i feel like i'm not sorry enough for the blasphemous thoughts i had about Jesus. i feel so terrible. i feel like i'm starting to get cruel. even with random people, i'm having cruel thoughts and feel like i agree with them. i'm not like this before. i don't know why i feel this way—like i will just fully believe and agree in every cruel thought i have. i feel like i have no energy to really feel bad, even though i know how terrible those thoughts are. i don't want to be a cruel person. i feel so sorry and bad for the thoughts i had about Jesus and those people, and it doesn't help that i keep thinking about whether i really believed and agree with them. i'm also scared because i'm thinking i'm developing psychosis. i've been analyzing my behavior before and earlier, and i'm scared that too much thinking will lead me there. i'm scared because i also have urges to laugh sometimes, and i have random thoughts and phrases that comes on my mouth that are unrelated to what i'm doing. my emotions also don’t match the situation sometimes. i'm also talking to myself out loud—i’m doing it to answer back to my ocd and explain things, but sometimes i'm doing it randomly or out of nowhere but i'm aware of it. i'm so scared of developing psychosis. i'm 17, and i can't see the purpose of living like this. i hate my brain. i hate myself. i feel so cruel. if i die, i'm thinking i’ll go to hell because i believed and agree on the blasphemous thoughts i had about Jesus, even though i cry, hurt myself, and acknowledge how horrible and wrong they are already. i feel like i'm still believing and agreeing on those blasphemous thoughts, like they have a point—and i hate that. it is so horrible. i even scared how my feelings are not aligned, like i really like it. i don't know why i feel this way. i'm so cruel. when i think about healing myself, i feel so undeserving of it—because why would a cruel person like me deserve that? why would someone who might commit blasphemy against Jesus heal? i just want to d!e. i'm so tired. i don't care about myself anymore, but i'm so scared and worried about what i've done to Jesus. can you help me? i badly need help. i don't know what to do anymore. i feel so condemned. i feel like i'm about to develop psychosis because of this. please help me. i feel so cruel.
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