ocd and being a covert narcissist

@OutstandingCutieDisorder well I’m only 16 and I’ve heard teenagers already are naturally more narcissistic anyway. I’m also born as a girl and that already makes me less likely to develop npd. I have a history of social anxiety but I feel like my family has always been that type to make fun of each other and I mean sometimes we have genuine laughs but especially my sister is very blunt and can be self centered which might’ve rubbed off on me. She’s very defensive and sometimes I avoid showing annoyance around her because I already know how she’ll react. I know this is terrible to do but especially with this theme I start to think she’s a narcissist and I am one too. And a lot of people say a narcissist wouldn’t worry if they were one but I feel like I’m only worrying about it to feel better about myself and I don’t know if it’s genuine curiosity or worry bc sometimes I guess after obsessing over the same thing so much it doesn’t effect you to the same level. I already see a therapist and she’s told me over and over I’m not one but I can’t get myself to actually believe it. Ik most ppl on here aren’t therapist or anything either but I just wanna see what other people think of this maybe?

@Summ3r_ - Sounds like OCD twisting things and making you come to conclusions that aren't necessarily true. If you've already been told by a professional that you are not a narcissist, then I think you should believe them and treat this as an OCD obsession. Is your therapist an OCD specialist?

@OutstandingCutieDisorder well I have two therapists actually😅 I’ve been seeing one in real life for about 2-3 years and she isn’t specialized in ocd but can do things that might help with ocd. I recently started seeing a new one online and shes specialized in ocd but we’ve just been doing paperwork so far so I haven’t really gotten to express much of this fear yet. I try to believe it’s just my ocd but I’ve had it for so long it’s like idk if I developed narcissistic traits along the way yk? it just feels like I’m even lying to them like maybe I didn’t tell the full truth or smth ??

@Summ3r_ - Everything you're describing is very typical for OCD. I'm excited for you that you're starting OCD specific therapy, I think that will help you a lot! Definitely tell them about this NPD stuff -- they can help you do ERP which will make a big difference.

@OutstandingCutieDisorder thank you lots 😭😭🫶 I hope it goes well too and since that theme is so big I made sure to bring it up on the first day lolol