I need help

So I almost said something against the Holy Spirit the devil has been trying to get me to say something against it for like weeks now and has been trying to get me to see Jesus in like a scary way with like devil horns and all of that stuff like that and then last night he made the cross my mind where I wasn’t scared to go to hell but I truly am and I see how he’s playing on my emotions and the fact that where I tried to cry, but I couldn’t cry anymore and he keeps trying to convince me to say these things that I don’t wanna say and he he keeps trying to get me to say that I curse the Holy Spirit, but I don’t I really truly don’t and then I just started to feel weird last night like I didn’t feel anything I felt really empty and then I keep praying and trying to talk to God, but I can’t feel him or the Holy Spirit. I’m scared because I feel like I’m going to hellwhat do I do? Also like as if he was on the cross and that they Holy Spirit is evil. Every form of blasphemy I feel like I’ve committed how do I fix this because now I feel empty and scared to go to hell

Steven55!

User type: OCD Conqueror

Date posted: 22w

In my unprofessional opinion, I suspect what you're experiencing is called scrupulosity OCD. OCD attaches itself to who and what you value and what you fear. You value God and you fear the devil; hence, the theme you're experiencing. These are intrusive OCD thoughts, not your true feelings and God knows it. He wouldn't condemn you for catching the flu, nor will he condemn you for having OCD, which is not your doing. When you have an intrusive thought, why don't you just tell yourself that it's just an OCD thought and then find something productive to do to distract yourself. As my therapist told me, it's not the content but how we react to it that matters. If you continue to react to these thoughts in the matter you're doing, it only reinforces them, which is exactly what OCD wants you to do. In the morning, why don't you say a prayer and tell God you're sorry for any intrusive thoughts against Him that you may get during the day, and that you ask for His support while you just let the thoughts go. BTW, are you in therapy with a trained OCD therapist who used ERP therapy? OCD is treatable with the right therapist. Hope this helps.

Anonymous

Date posted: 22w

@Steven55! No im not but i really need help because u don’t know what’s going on with me

Steven55!

User type: OCD Conqueror

Date posted: 22w

You can contact NOCD and request a free consultation. They have many excellent, trained OCD therapists. You can request a Christian therapist, too.

Anonymous

Date posted: 22w

@Steven55! I was seeing one but because our schedule didn’t match and they couldn’t find another one I discharge

Steven55!

User type: OCD Conqueror

Date posted: 22w

Are you in the USA?

Anonymous

Date posted: 22w

@Steven55! Yeah but I just work 5 days a week 8-4

Steven55!

User type: OCD Conqueror

Date posted: 22w

Why don't you do virtual sessions (Zoom, etc.), which would make it much more flexible for you. NOCD sessions are virtual, as are many others.

Anonymous

Date posted: 22w

@Steven55! She didn’t have those times available for after 4:00

Steven55!

User type: OCD Conqueror

Date posted: 22w

Then find another therapist.

Anonymous

Date posted: 22w

@Steven55! I am now thank you

Steven55!

User type: OCD Conqueror

Date posted: 22w

@Anonymous Great! As we both know, OCD is a peculiar disorder and doesn't respond well to standard therapy. We need trained OCD therapists who uses ERP therapy, the gold standard for OCD treatment. If you're going to go through NOCD, I recommend Judy Lair. Judy is an excellent OCD therapist and a Christian counselor. She was my therapist and I highly recommend her.

Anonymous

Date posted: 22w

@Steven55! Thank you for the advice

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