I’m constantly thinking about what if I go crazy.No matter how good I’m feeling the thought always creeps back in same with what if no one is real.I used to get anxiety from it but I don’t really get it anymore as much which scares me.How long did this last for anyone who experienced this?I feel like it’s been going on for months and I’m scared it’ll never go away.
I had literally the exact same thoughts for months on end. from about February to May or June I was constantly obsessed with the thought I was developing schizophrenia or that everything I was experiencing was just one big hallucination. the only difference between our experiences that I can really see is my thoughts were kicked off by a bad trip I had in February that left me thinking everything I experienced after was some kind of drug induced psychosis. one thing I can tell you is these thoughts dont last forever even if they feel that way. I really believed I would never feel better and this was my new forever. I was wrong. im doing so much better now. the hard times were hard but ultimately I got through it. recovery is definitely possible. I think a lot of my improvement may have come from starting to take prozac which I think definitely helped. my ocd is so much more manageable now and is no where near the hell it was a few months ago. nothing lasts forever my friend. good luck! if you ever need someone to talk to feel free to reach out. I definitely understand what youre going through.
@Killian666 One of the thoughts I get is like what if I developed phycosis
@Liesey yeah ive had thoughts exactly like that. one thing that helped me get through it was remembering that the delusions that come with psychosis are completely different than the intrusive thoughts that come with ocd because with ocd you realize your thoughts aren't rational but with delusions you don't realize your thinking is disordered. another thing that helped me is embracing uncertainty and telling myself things like "yeah maybe I do have psychosis, who fucking cares". its so hard at first and so scary but down the line it helps i swear. therapy and medication has really helped me.
@Killian666 I feel like I’ve gotten better with it it just sucks because when I get those thoughts to go away it feels wrong
@Liesey just because it feels wrong doesn't mean it is. ocds good at making us feel like somethings wrong or dangerous when it isnt. the only real way to recover from ocd is to learn to get comfortable being uncomfortable and eventually it doesn't even feel that uncomfortable anymore.
@Killian666 Recently I’ve been getting the thought of what if I hurt someone in my family which I’d never do but it’s a scary thought
@Liesey that is a really scary thought to have. remember your thoughts aren't who you are and intrusive thoughts that come with ocd go against your values. having these thoughts doesn't mean youre gonna hurt your family because youre the only one in control of your own actions. the best thing I can recommend is sitting with this fear and trying your best to avoid compulsions when it arises. I know how hard it can be cause ive gone through it myself but I think I can honestly say its really helped me get over my own fears. trust me when I say it gets better even if it doesn't feel like it right now.
@Killian666 Thank you for listening 😭it means alot I feel like when I talk about it people will think I’m crazy
@Liesey dude ive felt the same way. im always worried my anxiety will be misunderstood and people will think im crazy or be afraid if me. having these intrusive thoughts doesn't make you crazy. and np bro im always down 2 listen :p
@Killian666 I’ve tried talking to my mom about part of it but no bueno 😭it’s hard finding people who will listen and take it srsly
@Liesey yeah my dad's like that. whenever I try to talk to him about it he makes it worse lol. I get the feeling of having no one 2 talk 2
@Killian666 I feel like it’d be nice to talk to a therapist one day but I feel like my brain would try to convince me that thats not real either
@Liesey id rlly recommend it. im talking 2 a therapist thru nocd rn named aaron marks and hes fucking awesome. absolute life saver. therapy along with medication has rlly helped me turn shit around. I also convince myself that im not real and that things around me aren't real sometimes. I also experience dissociation which definitely doesn't help. ive started telling myself shit like "yeah maybe this isnt real, who gives a fuck, it feels pretty real right now." its taken time but i think its started to help make the thoughts feel more quiet.
@Killian666 I hope I can one day it’s kind of hard rn
@Liesey yeah I rlly get that dude. things will definitely get better. nothing lasts forever
so since mid december i’ve been feeling like this , well first in mid december I’ve started feeling anxiety like normal, normal as in physical things like feeling like im going to pass out, shaking, chest pain, etc. but then it got worse , then it turned into more of mind stuff like feeling not real , feeling weird like idk. my mind is always runningg like on over drive, like looking back at myself that doesn’t seem like me. like idk. i can’t stand to look at myself anymore bc it doesn’t feel like me. i can’t be alone , when i think about to it makes it sm worse. but how do i stop thinking ab it? or make it better. i’m scared it’s gonna get worse. like i can’t even do my makeup anymore bc i think something bad will happen. i can’t go certain places , like stay the night bc i think something bad is gonna happen.
So I had a panic attack a while ago to “kill mom” and I forgot about the thought until a few days later. When it came back I was mentally drained and it lasted for 2 months or more. It eventually went away but it is back. I get other intrusive thoughts but they go away after a hour or so. Why am I stressing over “kill mom” so much. I just get irritated that it won’t go away. I’m beginning to think it’s a different mental illness maybe just anxiety? I’m not sure to be honest. It just appears and sits there and I feel like I’m doomed and a pyscho and worry that I’ll never forget the thought.
does anyone has any tips how to stop the "what if cycle"?? i have very disturbing what if thoughts on daily basis and they're rlly scary always. i know they're not real but sometimes they feel so real and possible to happen and i hate this
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