I want to live

I will pray with every part of my being that it happens what I sincerely want and feel, not what I fear,but the fact that I am only 14 years old makes it impossible to wish for it🥲🥲im so tired i even don’t want to figure out,i just want to live comfortably and play games like kids in my age

Hello💜im here,im sorry that im late

@Mimo116 Thanks i wanted to ask As you're 14.. So how are your patterns of ocd episodes I mean do you get feelings sesnations and images like adults do? Have ever found yourself been relatable to symptoms of an adult with hocd?

@ONE INDIAN GIRL ._. - Yes, I relate so much,you may find me young, but actually my thoughts are sexual and complicated and annoying, if that's what you mean

@Mimo116 Yeahh i was worrie that i am very young dont have enough experience But have sympotms like adults for which now i feel like i am just being influenced by others and mimicking them

@ONE INDIAN GIRL ._. - How old are you? Its crazy also that my hocd make new thoughts like “you never dated so u don’t know if u really like men” or “when u grow up and experience life u will change and will be gay” or “u are a teen and its a phase” so,maybe its a little bit different from adults (because thay have more trust in their sexuality) but still i experience everything about hocd.

@Mimo116 I am in huge spiral But calm not really but calm not in hyper Mode.. Im just really worried about something.. And everything feels like proof 😞🌫

@ONE INDIAN GIRL ._. - Its ok girl!:>ocd can make that,and its bloody hell feels right or make scene,ocd can disguises and becomes like your inner voice,so the more OCD progresses on you, the more you forget what you want or what you are,so the only solution is not to confirm our sexual orientation, but to eliminate OCD Saying is so much easy than acting,im myself can’t heal and it gets worse everyday but im trying to make someone else at least feel better

@Mimo116 That's so encouraging but i mean i am crying rn while typing..i dont know why the idea of dating men is now feelings horrible and anxious idk why...😞

@ONE INDIAN GIRL ._. - Me too girlie , just remember,the girl who doesn’t truly like men won’t cry over losing her attraction to them. Dont listen to the thoughts in ur head,and the horrible feelings is because u have ocd and u are anxious,ocd can make fake feelings that isnt you

@Mimo116 Have ever been soooo confused or spiralled about a friend for long?

@Mimo116 Hey can you help somehwere here said im in love with a friend....and im gone now

@Mimo116 Hey can you help i seriously need help please could you help

@ONE INDIAN GIRL ._. - Im sorry for being late..I don’t check the website a lot if i don’t have a panic,yes,i have a friends that my friendship with her is deep,and im so confused,but I discovered that its a part of hocd,love wont torture you like that,but ocd can,and don’t listen to people,no one knows about you better than yourself

@Mimo116 Thanks im better but i feel like i am resisting the feelings like aww "shes cute i wanna date her.."

@ONE INDIAN GIRL ._. - But if we look in reality,you are panicking,you are scared.anything u are scared of is ocd,don’t believe any idea or feeling that appears in ur mind,don’t see them as clues on something. These feelings maybe mean another things other romantic love,why do u still think its romantic? Because u have ocd. I love my female friend as a platonic way and its deep and we are so close.so my mind will tell me its romantic,but does i have to believe it? I have ocd,im anxious,my brain can do any sh..it while u are tired.

@ONE INDIAN GIRL ._. - Also.ocd can makes false attraction,not just physical,even emotional!! It can do both im actually! So many hocd people feels that and it doesn’t mean something,ocd can fake feelings‼️‼️

@ONE INDIAN GIRL ._. - So,i gave my ocd so much time and attention,i started growing false emotional attraction to women or any female ,and its horrible as hell,it feels real like a real sexuality but nothing is comfort,I figured out that if ocd is growing bigger in u because u gave it attention,it can fake feeling to test you,to see what will u react or do.it won’t stop,u have to not give it any energy.it will say “rethink” but u won’t be comfortable,u won’t find an answer that will stop ocd,ocd won’t stop by knowing the answer,because ocd doesn’t even want an answer,ocd just want u to doubt everything without rest,so dont give it what it want.

@Mimo116 Hey i went off this app for while..cause it was triggering..

@ONE INDIAN GIRL ._. Take your time💜sometimes things are not easy,and its ok to rest

@Mimo116 🤍🥺