constantly when I deliberately imagine sex scenes looking at the photo that triggers me (my sister's face), it's like I'm imagining, projecting how I see myself how self pleasure myself, and I feel like I can, I have some drive, and it's like there are no limits, like the more I imagine the stronger it is... it scares me a lot, and I think I'm the only one who has it that way, and that it's not part of ocd...
This happens to me too :(
@lichens really? I'm not alone? Oh God, I'm so sorry we're going through that...how do you feel about that? how do you manage to cope?
It is normal with pocd. I have had sexual urges before towards kids and yes it is very disturbing but they are just thoughts which that come to trigger you but rememeber these things are not you as they distrub you.
@@sophiaevidal but how can it be like that? that there are no limits? that it gives the feeling that I would enjoy it at all and why do I keep seeing it.. I'm sorry to bother you, myself and everyone, but believe me, it really depresses me that I think like that.. and I feel like it's pulling me
@Anonimus ME 🦋 Ocd has no limits it latches on to everything that you care about. But dont let it take take from you. You love your sister so spend time with her and know those thoughts mean absolutely NOTHING ABOUT YOU.
@@sophiaevidal Ugh, I know, I love her the most in the world, and all this is taking me so far away...thoughts, urges, and finally the feeling that I can mas*tu**bate while imagining or watching it...all this makes me want to go to another planet, but out of my own skin...😩
@Anonimus ME 🦋 Yea I know it hard. But dont let it take power over you. Spend time with your sister and show the ocd that you can be around and this fear is irrational.
@@sophiaevidal thank you, but I don't know what to do when I have the urge to look at pictures and imagine, it's just that sometimes it's easier for me to cool down and sometimes I just fall into a cycle..
@Anonimus ME 🦋 Yes I get it it is hard but try to ride the urge out and I would talk to your therapist about this if you are comfortable.
@@sophiaevidal thank you..you are really wonderful..and you make me feel less alone...how did you overcome that?
@Anonimus ME 🦋 With erp and finding my therapist
@@sophiaevidal def. I will need a new therapist. Mine, not in my country as the best, but everything she tells me, it's ocd, you know..and that's it.. -.-
@Anonimus ME 🦋 Yes but I recommend nocd therapist if you able to.
@@sophiaevidal any special ones?
@Anonimus ME 🦋 Like therapists. Mine is Leigh Anne Sellars
@@sophiaevidal I also have had Jordann Perez both are therapists are nice but ultimately a stayed with Leigh Anne as she was a better fit.
@@sophiaevidal thanks for the recommendation, I don't know if there is any chat therapy, that would suit me better considering that English is not my native language?
@Anonimus ME 🦋 Well nocd do have have other therapist that I think speak other language I am not sure though but they have the 15 minute call you make to ask a representative what you are looking for.
@@sophiaevidal Ok thank you very much for the recommendation and everything..very much🫶🏻
I almost cried when I saw this, you’re not alone. At a certain point, is normal in the OCD with taboo themes. I’ve been feeling this too, but as far as you remember that those intrusive thoughts doesn’t represent you as well, all will be ok. It’s disturbing and distress a lot, I know how it feels (because I have a little brother too and love him with all my soul), but you are stronger than OCD, so don’t let it take all you love from you
@Konni34 thank you very, very much, until now I felt like I was alone and the only one with this, trapped in my mind, without being able to describe to anyone how it feels... thank you for your advice and support, I really try, but sometimes it really throws me into despair when all this happens..
I can't anymore.. Erp is very traumatic for me. It's about a sexual topic, and I come out with those scenes in my head, as well as photos of that person where their face makes me think of sexual grimaces. Every time, but every time during practice, I get detailed scenes and groinal. To me it looks like real sexual excitement, and I don't know exactly how to be immune to something that is sex in itself! I don't believe it's part of ocd at all..because it won't come off me and I can't believe it's not me
What irritates me the most is that during intimacy with my husband, it happens that OCD puts an image and scene in my head, my sister or someone for whom my OCD is attached and it's literally as if that intimacy is happening with that person, and it seems real that I can and it's exciting! I'm working on ERP during that, but it's still hard to digest... I don't know if it's the same for you?
these days I feel particularly bad. I can't let the thoughts and those scenes be there without going deeper into it. Everything about my sister has become a trigger for me, and I have the impression that she "turns me on" and creates a big panic. I feel like I can't breathe because I don't know how to let it all go and I don't attach importance... 5 months of ERP and now this, I can't do it, I don't know it...and I don't know what else to do...
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