Not looking for reassurance, just venting about how stupid OCD gets. Having a wild time with existential OCD at the moment. It started with me obsessing about what is going on in other people's minds. Not that I want to know what they are thinking, just how they are thinking - what it's like inside a head without OCD, is it quieter? Is that why other people like daydreaming and getting lost in thought? Then all of that philosophising lead me down a bad path and now my OCD is trying really hard to convince me that nothing exists outside my line of sight, the horizon is just an elaborate drawing and behind it is a black void. Obviously I know that's just ridiculous but it's hard not to feel like I'm losing my mind when I know that there is a world beyond my current line of sight but my OCD brain is trying it's hardest to convince me that there's not. Usually when existential obsessions come up it's because I'm going through a major life event but that's not the case right now so it beats me why this particular brand of obsessions has made an appearance again. Oh well.

I know how you’re feeling! This theme has been hard on me. Mine started with the what if I’m actually just experiencing a dream state and in reality I’m doing horrible things, then it morphed to what if no one is real not even me. It’s ridiculous and frustrating because I tell myself it doesn’t matter but literally everything and everyone can trigger the thoughts. Scary as hell! Keep pushing forward and try to live the best you can!

I know I hate ocd . Bad today for me time of the month too . So I'm at home because I'm signed off work because if this shit . While being at home I am still getting my self out the house. Now I have new things I'm scared of . Example this is just stupid so now I think one my kitchen cupboards is bad dont know why not even sure wtf I'm so scared of it for keep going back to look in it and counting

I'm better to what i was 4 weeks ago andbim on extra tablets but still keeps popping back at me . I should be use to it I've had this for 23 years. Since july 1st time ever has come back with strong horrible ridiculous thoughts

U too x

This theme has been absolutely hell for me. I wake up questioning the self and nature of reality and why any of us are here on the daily. Makes me so sick. Hang in there! Sending hope!

Thank you everyone it's so good just having people out there who get it.