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I know how you’re feeling! This theme has been hard on me. Mine started with the what if I’m actually just experiencing a dream state and in reality I’m doing horrible things, then it morphed to what if no one is real not even me. It’s ridiculous and frustrating because I tell myself it doesn’t matter but literally everything and everyone can trigger the thoughts. Scary as hell! Keep pushing forward and try to live the best you can!
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I know I hate ocd . Bad today for me time of the month too . So I'm at home because I'm signed off work because if this shit . While being at home I am still getting my self out the house. Now I have new things I'm scared of . Example this is just stupid so now I think one my kitchen cupboards is bad dont know why not even sure wtf I'm so scared of it for keep going back to look in it and counting
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I'm better to what i was 4 weeks ago andbim on extra tablets but still keeps popping back at me . I should be use to it I've had this for 23 years. Since july 1st time ever has come back with strong horrible ridiculous thoughts
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U too x
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This theme has been absolutely hell for me. I wake up questioning the self and nature of reality and why any of us are here on the daily. Makes me so sick. Hang in there! Sending hope!
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Thank you everyone it's so good just having people out there who get it.
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- 24w
I started dealing with OCD when I became fixated on health issues, particularly the fear of contracting a life-threatening disease. If I experienced any kind of medical symptom, no matter how small, that even remotely hinted at something potentially fatal, it would drive me crazy, and I couldn’t stop obsessing over it. Then one day, I started having intrusive thoughts about accidentally hitting someone with my car, and I would end up driving in circles to check if I had. Eventually, I found myself overwhelmed by a flood of new obsessive thoughts and compulsions. One day, while I was at the park, a squirrel came near me, and for some reason, I felt like it attacked me. I Googled it and learned that squirrels could carry rabies, which spiraled me into a deep fear of rabies. I became consumed with the thought I received a bite from a squirrel, raccoon, or bat any time I’m in areas that trigger me. It started off only being inside then transferred to even being in my own home. This made me obsess over every physical sensation in my body, compulsively checking to make sure nothing was wrong. One compulsion that I hated the most would to be putting rubbing alcohol on me to make sure that I had no open wounds. Every day feels like I’m walking around in a fog of anxiety, constantly worrying that I won’t even make it to old age. Sometimes, it gets so overwhelming that I just want it all to end. It stresses me so bad at times to where my brain feels like I’ve been studying all day.
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so I need to get back into ERP, but it’s so hard to manage these thoughts and learn to deal with them. like I swear my mind has to make everything about it. Like every time I clean my room, my mind’s like yup make sure it’s clean so when your parents find you, or something so stupid like if I get a headache, my mind convinces me that I like the pain and that that’s why I get my thoughts because I actually want to do it. It’s so exhausting. Because I know I would never want to take my life and I treasure my life so why does it do it to me? It’s hard to comprehend the fact of these thoughts too because I don’t know many people with this exact theme. It’s such a scary feeling. And I’m constantly questioning whether I have actual depression or if it’s just my OCD. Yes I have been diagnosed with suicidal OCD, but my mind still tries to convince me otherwise. I just don’t know how to let these just sit and pass without panicking.
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Anyone else feel that when they aren’t experiencing a theme that their ocd is almost non existent. It almost makes me feel like I’ve been faking it, and also makes me feel ridiculous for obsessing over things. I feel sorry for myself :/ I know that my themes are valid and felt very real in the moment, but after I “get over” them I just can’t believe that I was obsessing over something that either wasn’t true or didn’t apply to me. I would also like to know how to prevent themes from reoccurring. Health, religion and existential OCD themes tend to take turns throughout my life, I just didn’t know that was it ocd. Trying to break the cycle.
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