Why is it that when I see, for example, a completely benign situation, with people who are not adapted to such things (pocd, zocd, socd) I see mimicry, movement, I see something sexual and I feel something😔
Because our Brain is searching for it . It searches for danger and looks for triggers and therefore finds them
@nyx32 and it does this without our awareness? because I don't understand it any other way. ruin my day!
@Anonimus ME 🦋 Check out Mark Freeman‘s Video on YouTube: „What if the Obsession is about something I really did“ that one really helped me, it‘s not only about real event but also a really humorous approach to our struggle
Same
@Idontknow really? thank you for sharing that with me..it means that at least we are not alone..how are you?
@Anonimus ME 🦋 How are you doing??
@Idontknow sometimes better sometimes worse..it's hard but life has to be lived..thanks for the question..you?
@Anonimus ME 🦋 I feel like garbage right now the urges ….
@Idontknow i know...what's going on? if you want to chat I'm here ❤️
@Anonimus ME 🦋 Just now I had my hand near his face and felt like touching him like I had this sensation in my hand like I would not care if my hand did something bad Omg
@Anonimus ME 🦋 This sounds very suspicious and p
@Idontknow know, it's horrible...but you just have to ignore it, always without analysis, because that's what anxiety did and your excessive thinking about the scenario...it's not your desire, but fear, but even when it seems that you would do "something" it's a sample of FEAR and ANALYSIS of the brain... It's ironic that it really stops when we learn to ignore it at all..but that part is the hardest part..
@Anonimus ME 🦋 I think it sometimes too and I get this sensation and I think it while imagining I’m enjoying it but I don’t feel weak I feel this tiny sensation of enjoyment that’s worrying me because ps active and enjoy the thoughts but it’s sometimes with me
@Idontknow I know how you feel...it's the same for me...but I noticed that the more I dig in and think about it, the more real it seems...tell me, are you going to therapy? you have a professional with whom to talk? eat do you feel worse or better?
@Anonimus ME 🦋 I recently found an ocd therapist and I’m scared I’m lying to her in my head it’s like yup lie to her so I can have the ocd diagnosis rather than p so I won’t feel like garbage Sometimes I don’t eat Sometimes I feel worse sometimes better Sometimes I’m like they’re just thoughts that’s reality because I never did anything How about you, are you ok???
@Idontknow it's the same for all of us who go to therapy. You are not lying to her. And the therapist as an expert could judge whether you have ocd or not, whether you are lying or not! don't worry... Me too, sometimes worse sometimes better.. the worst are the urges, and what I practice to ignore all that...
@Anonimus ME 🦋 I’m so worried because I fixed on a certain kid and think at them in a taboo way
@Anonimus ME 🦋 Then I feel something not a full arousal
@Anonimus ME 🦋 Sorry for repeating myself but I feel like a p with Pocd I don’t know which one I have I sound like a p
@Idontknow I know! and for me it is related to only one person. it's the same for me. but somehow you have to believe that it is not your nature, but fear! Trust me.
@Anonimus ME 🦋 I’ve thought it and in the I was enjoying it and got the feeling I don’t know how to explain it but I feel like I’m lying to you
@Idontknow I know everything..but trust the therapist, he knows! Trust me I know what you're talking about! and start believing in yourself...it's terrible I know! constantly those images, then feelings, then urges...and the only way is to ignore all that...in the beginning you will be drawn to constantly analyze, but you have to resist! Like when you itch but you can't scratch it..it gets easier..but do you take medicine?
@Anonimus ME 🦋 Once I saw this little girl at the salon I sat down and thought stuff about her and was uncomfortable that she was in the same room as me and when I got home I had urges
@Idontknow what kind of urge? I constantly have images and some urges in the presence of trigger people..terrible
@Anonimus ME 🦋 Like to do inappropriate stuff
@Anonimus ME 🦋 You see I feel like I’m an actual p
@Idontknow I understand! you have arousal...believe me, I have it too, and most of us who have been sick for a long time...but the brain thought that out of fear and constant "challenging" to check-ups..
@Anonimus ME 🦋 Help Last night my brother went to sleep and I went to him because his friend was calling him on the phone I took of the blanket off of him he was in a fetal position and I looked at his butt then I went to the other side and rubbed his forehead and touched his eyelashes and I feel like a p and I’m asking my brother if I did anything and he said he doesn’t remember and I’m just like how is he calm and careless I could be a cm does that mean he doesn’t care???
@Idontknow he doesn't have that problem so he doesn't even understand... he just can't know what's in your head.. It's certainly your analysis and concern, not reality... Feeling something and being it are two different things. Especially since it is known that in ocd there are intrusive feelings
He has many great videos
@nyx32 Who? Do you think that's not conscious? It's so disturbing..scaring to me.
@Anonimus ME 🦋 I wrote a message above
@nyx32 I don't know.. maybe I don't see messages..
@Anonimus ME 🦋 Sorry, I don‘t understand what you mean right now
@nyx32 you say that "he has a lot of good videos" so I asked who, probably we didn't understand each other..but thanks you certainly.. I was really shaken 😔
@Anonimus ME 🦋 @Anonimus ME 🦋 Check out Mark Freeman‘s Video on YouTube: „What if the Obsession is about something I really did“ that one really helped me, it‘s not only about real event but also a really humorous approach to our struggle This is what I wrote
@nyx32 thank you very much! now I accidentally entered here.. sometimes I really don't see notifications on time.. how are you?
@Anonimus ME 🦋 I‘m doing fine at the moment. My therapist and I are working through my Traumas First before starting ERP. So there‘s that.. all the sensations, thoughts and all are still there. I just remind myself that I‘m not alone and have this Community to open up to. That really helps.. how are you? Do you work with a therapist?
@nyx32 I do..thank you on the question.. I have bad days and good days, but I am very grateful for everyone here..
Does it happen to you that when a person is specific in your ocd thoughts (my sister is my sister), that everything about her is a trigger for you when you see her? And the way he moves, talks, eyes, you suddenly sexualize everything, or is it just me? it really bothers me, because I constantly feel my groin, so I wonder if it's really OCD, or if it's something in me...
I saw a video of an animal that someone was cleaning or doing something to the intimate region, and I automatically sexualized it and got some strange feeling, something like groin, even the animal looked like it was enjoying itself and I just feel different and disgusting because I know it's not normal, I didn't have zoocd and it's not clear to me how that feeling precedes my thoughts...
i saw a trigger in a instagram reel. i noticed the face immediately, i guess that's because she had a unique beautiful face and that's precisely what ticked me and made me alerted. and my brain started telling me that meant something, the cuteness and so on the potential danger that i felt, it seemed like a cue that something was there. and my brain started testing me with intrusive se&ual images. and im afraid that they weren't completely distasteful to my brain even though i didnt want it and i was freaking out. im afraid there might be of component of truth that makes something in my brain wrong. why did it feel like there was a potential "allure" in those intrusive images? why did it feel like i could like it? was it because the more taboo is something the more it feels "alluring" automatically? something in those se&ual intrusive images felt affine, akin, feasible to maybe my preferences? was it the association between intrusive pretty face + the intrusive image of a private area overlapping in meaning making me think that there could be some likeness? some potential attraction towards it? or is it really true and i have something in my brain that ive been in denial this whole time? maybe i'm a danger. im utterly worried abt this. why was i able to feel like there was some affinity towards those se&ual intrusive association-images? please if somebody knows, tell me, because until then i don't think i can rest in peace. and it's not a matter of uncertainty, this is something untolerable. i cant live like a guilty person and act like im innocent and that is all ocd. it feels perversed.
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