is it possible to even have a relationship

I'm going through exactly this. I feel like everything I've ever done will come to the surface and I'll die in prison knowing that they hate me. Ocd attacks what we love and it attacks what we regret. I take this as a sign that I must really love them.

I have this too. I remind myself that no one is perfect and try to have grace for myself. I also remind myself that if I think one obsession will go away, then another always pops up- OCD will keep pestering so waiting on living life until the anxiety is gone is just another OCD tactic. I do highly recommend having a good set of tools to use to battle the OCD. There’s a self compassion workbook you can buy that’s really helpful for OCD too

I get the feeling. In the end, I just work on pushing past those worries and focusing on the good things about me as well as the life I want to have. Anything else is less important- certainly not important enough to mean I shouldn't try

having this exact problem rn :/ like i feel undeserving of a relationship at all, especially because of my real events. but i told my therapist abt it and they told me that when i find that person, they’ll understand that i’m not defined by my thoughts or past mistakes. ig at the end of the day just working to better yourself and focusing on the positive is all you can do. i like to at least hold out hope that everything else will fall into place, even if it doesn’t feel feasible sometimes 🫶

Can relate

i’ve been going through this exact situation for a month now and it’s absolutely agonizing. i have so much disgust for myself because of my real event ocd and i’m terrified that if i ever tell my partner about this (or if she finds out another way) she will feel those same feelings of disgust towards me and never look at me the same again. right now i’m working on unconditional self acceptance and self compassion because i know that i cannot control how my partner thinks or feels about me, but i can control how i feel about myself.