I could use guidance

As a Christian there is many times where I struggle with my faith. These days have been quite difficult. I dealt with ocd for a couple of years. Just last year I officially overcame POCD. During this time I had supportive family that took everything I was going through seriously. But before I told them I only told God because I was ashamed of my thoughts and what I was going through. I prayed to God all the time for help. And there was many times where I opened my bible and read, tried to understand, cried and prayed. Though I might’ve not understood the Bible verse I felt comfortable being vulnerable with God in those moments. As I continued to pray I slowly gained the courage to tell my family what I was going through. And slowly I started to open up and gain the support I needed. Fast forward now I’ve been struggling heavily with having faith I often wondered if these things that I say was God was just me. I wondered if God was really guiding me through my family or if it was just them being kind because they felt like it. I struggle with believing that God has help me because I didn’t feel his presence like everyone says they do. Or I don’t hear his voice. Like how do ik what is God or just others free will… I also struggle with reading the Bible. I start for a week or two then stop because I don’t get it or because it’s confusing or hard to comprehend. I just feel like such a bad Christian because some people believe effortlessly whereas I barely have enough faith. I love God and want to follow him I just don’t know why I’m struggling so much right now… I could really use guidance or advice

Lady Day

Date posted: 23d

I was raised Christian, but also struggled to hear more than condemnation and fear in sermons and in the Bible. I found God again in AA and another member helped me change my view to that of a kind and loving God. That’s it. I made a place in my mind for us to walk together and talk and this has changed a lot over the years. I also look for God outside - a butterfly trying to get my attention, a car with bright lights, a bird swooping overhead - all of these are God saying “Hi! Look! This world I made you is so beautiful! See it with me!”

julianofnorwich

Date posted: 22d

This is so lovely!

jj5788

Date posted: 23d

Best advice I can give you is that faith is a journey. Every single day I doubt, and I get worried that I’ll lose my faith. Sometimes I’ll feel close to God and sometimes I’ll feel farther. Your faith won’t be perfect all of the time. What’s important is that you continue to pray and seek God, EVEN IF you don’t feel him right away. Stop seeking reassurance from feelings. Our faith is more than a temporary feeling

Ava3050

Date posted: 20w

Being a Christian pursuing God but OCD hijacking.

Anyone else struggling with reading their bible or having a certain feeling to feel like God loves them and if they don’t it ruins their whole time with God. Makes pursuing him really hard. Any tips ?

Jacklyngrant

Date posted: 19w

questioning why God would allow this

Hi friends. I recently had a relapse with OCD and I haven’t felt that real intense pain/fear/panic since I was first diagnosed 3 years ago. It was awful. I’ve been on medication and going to therapy for some time, and I am happy to report I have grown a lot. Long story short, it’s just become a burden for me recently trying to understand why this had to happen to me (and all of you). When I first started following Jesus, it was such a spiritual high. I had so much peace and joy, and I think within that first year with Him I became obsessed with the Bible and learning as much as I could. I think it was a sweet time, but suddenly a switch flipped. I became concerned that all my head knowledge, though I took to heart, became all I cared about. Then all the intrusive thoughts started, and you know the rest. I was relieved when I got my diagnosis, to know that scrupulosity is even a thing. But today, I sit and realize my OCD has taken on other forms (existential/fear of going insane) and then of course I started asking God “why me?”. And then… of course.. I feel bad for asking that. And then it triggered that same old feeling that I’m not in right standing with God. It’s so meta I can’t take it. Does anyone wonder why this had to be? I know the typical answers “we live in a broken world” and “God will use this for His glory” but is anyone just able to sit in that frustration, and work it out? I want to keep fighting, try understanding, like there’s this itch in me that I need to “figure out” something. But I know God isn’t the voice that’s speaking that to me. But gosh, it’s so brutal and hard. I believe God is carrying me through this. 2 Corinthians 12 has been a blessing for this. I just feel so weak. I get upset this is happening, start doubting God, and then feel guilty. It’s a stupid cycle and I see it. I have a very intellectual mind, and I find that most people with this kind of OCD share this trait. But it’s like, the logic doesn’t help. I just want God to sit in my bedroom and tell me it’s real, my faith is intact, and to keep trusting. I don’t know why He won’t do that for me, and I feel guilty for even feeling that way. Anyways, I don’t know what I’m seeking here, but for anyone feeling this way, know you’re not alone. I deeply love you all, even though we are all strangers. 1 Peter 5:9… right?

Cammy123

Date posted: 11w

Religious OCD

So about 2 years ago I gave my life to Jesus. I've always been a "Christian" but never truly lived liked one. Honestly never truly felt love for them until 2 years ago. It was the best couple months of my life!!! I felt so happy and loved and unstoppable! I thought this fire for God & Jesus will never burn out. One day I had a thought about is God real? It bothered me so bad and I went into a massive spiral. Doubting everything. My faith. if I was good enough. Am I really saved? Do I have enough faith? Is my doubt real? Is it too much? Have these blasphemous made God not want me anymore? Or Jesus? :( But I knew I was and that they were real! I know I've heard them. Then I started having horrible blasphemous thoughts but then it would go back to doubting thoughts then back to the blasphemous ones. I hated the thoughts and doubts. The thoughts are so mean towards God, Jesus & HS. It’s anywhere from evil thoughts to cussing thoughts to rejection thoughts/denying. Demonic thoughts. Literally anything bad you could think of! Even thoughts of if I really love them or wanna follow them. I learned about OCD from what I've looked up but I've been dealing with this for about 2 years now. It's hard. I doubt if it’s OCD. Definitely feel like I'm trapped or my faith isn't the same. Which makes me sad because I want my faith! I feel like I've gotten lazy and honestly that I don't deserve them or am "too far gone" from them. I feel like idk how to be a Christian or how to have faith or just exist tbh. I wanna love God & Jesus! I want faith! I just feel kinda stuck. Has anyone gone through this or has advice or tips?

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