I FUCKING HATE THIS DISORDER - I figured out that my saliva hyperawareness is what triggered my mind to have the oral sex intrusive thoughts, and now my OCD is making me think it’s not an intrusive thought, my question is - can OCD do that? Can it take one of your intrusive thoughts and make you think it isn’t an intrusive thought after you’ve identified the trigger??
I want to reply but I'm confused what your question is :c
@ccheney0 I’m asking if OCD can take an intrusive thought and make you think it’s not an intrusive thought - I edited the post to make the question clearer
@Fcukocd Short answer yes, ocd will try to make you feel like its real and its not.
@ocdmememachine Okay thanks, I just needed to know, because I’ve identified what triggered it, which I would have thought would ease the OCD a bit, but nope, it only made it stronger
Yes it can make you think you like it and show up pleasure center of the brain. It can also show up as a false memory. I’m literally dealing with this now.
@Anonymous I hate it so much, why does it have to take the thought that distresses me the most and make me think it’s not an intrusive thought and make me question if I like it when I know I don’t 😔
Okay so In the moment I get intrusive thoughts about children which I hate. I get the gronal responses which I always so many compultions after. My ocd is very bad and I’m showering and changing my bedding around 8 times. Therapists have told me I’m the worse they’ve ever known. That’s how bad my life is atm. I hate this disorder. I want to know if ocd can cause these things as it will help me to fight my compulsions and just except it’s ocd… In the moment the gronal responses are genuinely pleasurable and I struggle to ignore them and stop them, in the moment t I want them even if it was due to a thought of a kid My OCD will tell me I’m aroused I’ll feel aroused then when moving around in my bed it’ll tell me to make my vagina touch my bedding for a feeling while I’m turning over and I purposely do it in the moment… I hate it. After I do so many compilations, it’s not even me it’s like someone else controlling my body When I try to fight my compulsions I think in my mind “I like this anyways” and actually like the thoughts and gronal responses over the children, which then makes me not be able to fight them. For example my ocf was telling me to spray my feet with anti back, but then I tried to fight it and I was thinking to myself “nah l like this one I like this feeling over the kid it’s the real me” like I didn’t even feel stressed from it it’s like I wanted it. Of corse after these I do lots and many compultions Please I just want to know if ocd can do this
Whenever anyone starts to feel like their thoughts are less triggering or they feel a moment of happiness/ relief OCD tells you that you want the thoughts back or you actually like having the thoughts and maybe thats just the person I really am? I feel like im going insane😢
more advice for sexual/pocd sufferers I read somewhere that if you hyperfocus too much on your body's reactions to intrusive thoughts, you're unwillingly just making it intensify the sensations. Your body, after enduring severe anxiety and stress from sexual obsessions, will now just react to anything sexual that comes into your mind, whether forced or randomly. It can happen in any way. OCD makes anything possible, and is driven by fear. Knowing this I realized, it doesnt matter at this point, and to let it happen. And you guys should too. Remember what your real values and desires are. It can feel as real as it gets, but it is still not you.
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