genericusername
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- 5y
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- 5y
Do you feel like you’re a danger to yourself?
genericusernamegenericusername
- Date posted
- 5y
Yes but that’s the whole thing with suicidal obsessions, you fear what you’ll do
deemajicaldeemajical
- Date posted
- 5y
Hi, sorry you have this it sucks ... I know because I had self harm and harm ocd in general and I wouldn’t wish it on anyone...it’s very misunderstood because when u say I’m having thoughts that I’ll kill myself it can sound very alarming....firstly, do you feel like you do really want your life to end, are you planning to hurt yourself and are you feeling calm about the thoughts? Or that you will be at peace etc? Or are you extremely anxious and trying to avoid the thoughts, or specific objects? I’m not a therapist but I know the difference between actually being suicidal and self harm ocd... self harm ocd is when you seriously do not in any way shape or form want to hurt yourself, it’s your worst fear and you try desperately to get the thoughts out of your head and start to hide objects and avoid... if you aren’t feeling that and feel like you really want to die etc then I think you need to tell someone and see a therapist ASAP or go to the hospital ...if so stop reading this now..... however, if you are the 2nd one like me and are so afraid of the thoughts then rest be sured it’s just some more ocd! In that case read John hershfields harm ocd book (the e book is $6 on amazon) it will explain everything you are going through, next start erp therapy... you need to let the thoughts in... this is hard as hell, I suggest starting very slowly with it on your own as you find a therapist who can help you more.... I was afraid of the razors in the bathroom.. I would close the curtain and hide them.. stop this behaviour immediately and start to allow yourself to be near what you are afraid of and even think about harming yourself (obviously without actually holding the object etc) this is intensive erp therapy it’s the only thing that worked for me... your brain needs to learn how to break associations and habituate through exposure therapy! Also, intrusivethoughts.org I highly recommend !! You can get through this! Good luck!
AnonymousAnonymous
- Date posted
- 4y
Wow.. thank you for your reply! I am so thankful I came across this post. My current theme is self harm and my biggest question has been “how do I know if it’s real or not!?” I noticed that I felt uncomfortable around knives and razors as well. The thoughts of “maybe you do want to just die” are accompanied by INTENSE fear and panic and makes me feel so scared. I have never been like this before and have always had a fear of dying. I have health anxiety to the max, so I assume this is why ocd attached to the harm theme for me. I really dislike it. It’s so scary for me to think “what if I am actually suicidal?”.. I feel better about knives now but I am still worried that I’m actually becoming depressed or developing a loss of love for life. I think this is ocd manifesting itself as well. I hope..
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