I hate saliva hyperawareness

@Anonymous Yeah it’s horrible, accepting uncertainty is easily the most difficult part, after 5 minutes of saying “maybe maybe not” there I am again googling and reassurance seeking. I hate this saliva thing so much, it kicked in a couple weeks ago and ever since it’s been hitting me like a train, to the point where I have dreams about it and then wake up with an uncontrollable feeling of constantly needing to swallow, it’s up there with groinal response for being the worst part of OCD, I know I don’t like men, and never have and never will, and I know it’s all OCD because when my OCD isn’t on one none of this happens, but the OCD just screams for certainty when it’s physically unobtainable, I try to say “maybe I’m bisexual maybe I’m not” but all it results in is me getting angry and more anxious

@Fcukocd I feel you. I know they say to the maybe. That’s not working for me at all. It messes with my head. I’m just gonna try saying that ocd. I don’t care what my body says I like women. I’m tired so I know how you feel. Saliva and swallowing is the worst. I’m pretty sure I’m not drooling over anyone and I feel nothing for them. Just know you’re not alone and it is just ocd symptom.

@Anonymous Yeah, wish it didn’t happen and I wish I’d just wake up one day and the OCD be gone, it’s happened in the past where it just disappeared, and I wish every day that it will happen again :( for all my life I’ve only ever been attracted to women like you are, and then when the ocd kicked in it’s like bam, overwhelming doubt for no real reason aside from intrusive thoughts, it’s horrible, and yeah, I try my best to just think of it as an ocd symptom, though sometimes it’s easier than others, most annoying part is after a couple hours of the hyperawareness I’ll start noticing that there actually is more saliva than usual

@Fcukocd Yeah it’s hard because it’s not taboo and could possibly be true to be attracted to men but the kicker is we are not and that’s why hurts so much. My pocd disappeared on me. I’m praying it this does to. I’m just gonna tell myself it’s a condition and I’m not gonna do the what if anymore. I’ll try keep you in the loop if it works if I see your posts on here.

@Anonymous Yeah it is, and my POCD disappeared on me as well and then the SOOCD took over, the one that always comes back is the SOOCD and it genuinely is killing me, and thanks, hope it does work for you