I'm alone?!? urges and imagination!

@@sophiaevidal yes, but you think these urges are for "touching down" and the thought of it, part of the groin?

@Speckles thank you I want! I'm really worried that after the trigger, whatever it is (a voice, a breath, a random picture), I get a strong feeling that I have to watch or listen to it until something happens! I try not to do that. However, there is that feeling, or an image (I imagine that I could touch myself on it) and I always feel it afterwards like an urge or I don't know how to explain it like when something itches, or whatever you have to touch... I don't even do that (I did it a couple of times before, it was terrible for me) but I still have a lot of stress.. I tried to explain to the therapist, she says it's a false impulse... but I don't understand why except that I have intrusive images taboo, I have to imagine that too..

@Speckles well, the main thing I was told was not to go into analysis and "let it all go" ..but it leaves a lot of questions and stress... Is there anything similar to me?

@Anonimus ME 🦋 Yes...I know it causes a lot of stress and anxiety. Not sure people really understand how distressing that this is. I've told my husband and he's supportive, but it's ruined my life. I don't know if I'll ever be able to feel anymore. I wish I could make this all go away for us. It's so confusing and debilitating.

@Speckles the same! My husband too! It's really there, and I tell him everything...which may not be good, but I would like it to go away...do you have children? and I'm afraid of that a lot

@Anonimus ME 🦋 I tell mine everything and I know he's getting frustrated. I don't have children and think one reason is the OCD. I always wanted to when I was younger, but this whole thing has taken over. My husband didn't want kids

@Anonimus ME 🦋 You don't have children? I'm too old now. Are you thinking of having kids?

@Speckles yes...I'm not very young either..I would like to but I'm also afraid of pregnancy, how it will be in my head, and only after..this, as you say, has destroyed me a lot throughout my life...

@Anonimus ME 🦋 I know the feeling. I hate this. It's so unfair. I feel like such a downer and burden to my husband. You might feel better in a little while abs decide you want them.

@Speckles well, it's not that I really love it, but it would be nice to have some normal way of life.. I don't know.. and I completely understand this for my husband...it's the same with me! I constantly wonder how long he will have patience... but next to him I feel so normal... sometimes our intimate life is terrible because of my thoughts... stressful..

@Anonimus ME 🦋 I feel the same way! Just want my old self back and to be able to feel my emotions again. I'm scared he'll leave me bc of this. It causes a lot of stress and anxiety

@Speckles omg yes! I understand you completely, and thank you that at least I'm not alone in this. Honestly, those "feelings" scare me more than thoughts..and every day I pray and fight to overcome it once and for all, me and all of us...suffering

@Anonimus ME 🦋 Yes... me too! You aren't alone. Hope we can overcome this soon. 🙏 Please let me know if you ever want to talk or vent. I'm here

@Speckles thank you! the same goes for you! it means our conversation.. if nothing else, at least to know that somewhere we are not alone❤️