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Whenever I was around 9 years old (that’s when I got diagnosed with ocd) I had the constant intrusive thought that I was going to get pregnant even though I was a virgin the thoughts started around Christmas time and haunted my life for years. The thoughts were awful and graphic and would cause me to have panic attacks so bad that my body would shake uncontrollably I would cry all the time and I was barley able to function. however I found with therapy and medication I was able to overcome those awful intrusive thoughts. Now even as an adult I sometimes get the intrusive thought creep into my head but now that I have the tools and support to combat it it is way more manageable. And even though I now have new intrusive thoughts that have since taken its place I find that instead of having constant mental pain the frequency is less and more manageable. So don’t give up there is light at the end of the tunnel.
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Sure, so its picking an image and or word to use ahead of the compulsion thoughts when you feel them it coming. Right so your after trying to distract yourself away from the pattern behaviour. D’you know our brains develop grooves like a vinyl from doing the same pattern thoughs. So like a record player we lean our thinking to the old grooves. A doctor told me that. But you can imagine then why its hard to change that. I dunno I’m hoping for some breakthrough in medical I’m so tired
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Don't lose hope!
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Thank you, I like that analogy and thanks for explaining what focal point is. They say that your OCD is as smart and persistent as you. If this is the case, I'm F'ed! On a serious note, success with ERP or living OCD-free (if that's ever possible) I think, depends on the individual. The key is to outsmart it. Remember that movie, 'Cast Away', with Tom Hanks? If you haven't watched it (SPOILER/TRIGGER ALERT) it's about this guy whose plane crashes in the middle of an ocean. He ends up on a deserted island and is forced to fend for himself. After spending God-knows how many days on this island, it becomes apparent to him that no one is going to find and rescue him. He has lost half his body weight. His spirit is broken. He's lost all hope. At one point in the movie, he contemplates taking his own life. The turning point of the movie is when, somehow, he finds the courage to get off the island by building himself a raft, rationing out his food supply, planning his escape. I think he almost gets himself killed when he has to weather out another storm. SPOILER ALERT: He somehow survives the storm and gets rrescued. (Sorry, I'm bad at explaining movie premises.) I know, just a movie. Most importantly, what I remember from the this movie, is that, I think, there is an innate ability in all human beings to WANT to survive, to want to learn, to want to get better despite whatever circumstances or adversity they may be facing. While we can only hope for a medical breakthough or cure, we can start helping ourselves by seeking help from a trusted individual (therapy), learning from others (like yourself), etc. OCD is a chronic - there is no one-size-fits-one-size-fits-all solution, which I find to be incredibly frustrating and at times, demoralizing. With the right help, support, and attitude, we can get on the right path to recovery. I know...
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Thanks thats great your positivity:) Oh he was I think years lost there. I think it was true story. But they made fed ex looks so awesome yeah right I cant even get them to ring my buzzer lol or call :)
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I would like to know too.
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I use to hold my breath in every classroom as a kid because I felt the same air as the people around me would poison me lol I came from where ppl where nice and moved to where they were’nt. Intrustive thoughts for me me changed topics over the years. There’s been hundreds. I use the Focal Point method or whater but it’s still hard. It’s as though the illness fights it.
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What is the Focal Point method, if you don't mind me asking? I'm still awake. I know I told someone to get some rest a short time ago in another post...I'm going to bed for real this time.
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Please share your experiences with ocd lying to you? Please share anything, thank you.
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So... I few years ago, I did self-harm a few times, and then I got super into spirituality, and about a year ago, I remembered I did self-harm and ever since haven't been able to shake the guilt off... Constantly, every day, my mind would make me feel guilty about it and think about it all day. It's like my brain knew the thought that I could/ have cut myself scared me, so it kept bringing it up. My family had no idea I had ever done this, so my OCD told me I was a liar for not telling them about every day. I was afraid that they wouldn't love me anymore and send me to a mental hospital if I told them. About 2-3 months ago, I had gotten so fed up with having these thoughts every day and confessed to my mom what I had done, and her reaction was great. And I thought I'd never have thoughts about when I did self-harm again because I finally confessed. I was wrong. Even with people telling me that it's okay, I did that, I can't shake the guilt I had around this event, and even more so the fear/guilt around my own thoughts... My therapist and I talk about how the problem isn't the thoughts but what the OCD does to them. I try to create positive neural pathways, but that just makes me more stressed about it. There are things I'm supposed to tell myself when I feel negative, but I think I get that confused and tell myself those things every time I have thoughts about what I did. Which is feeding into a mental compulsion (replacing every "bad" thought with a "good" one. What works for me is (if I can) do nothing and have the thoughts... It's been hard to get better because I have had no idea what's been happening to me and felt like for the last year I was going crazy... I always thought OCD was cleaning stuff and physical compulsions . Everything that happened to me happened in my head. On the worst days when my OCD is really bad, every single time I was conscious and aware, I was thinking about the fact that I did self-harm. I would lie in bed all day trying to figure out my thoughts because I thought if I watched TV, I would be avoiding important things. I thought I had to figure out all my thoughts. I would ruminate, replay, and second-guess all. day. long. It was hard to do any of the things I loved; OCD took the joy out of it. It was hard to recognize it was OCD because I thought I had done something seriously bad and wrong, and that I must deserve these thoughts. I think the trick is that you feel like you must have positive thoughts, and the most distressing thing wasn't necessarily the fact that I did self-harm, but the fact that I couldn't stop thinking about it. I find the best thing you can do is just have all your thoughts in your head and try not to separate them from good and bad, if you can. It's nice to have people who understand!!!! More to come, about the journey. My favorite thing to say when I'm stuck is "that sly devil... OCD. Silly OCD is getting to me right now, but it won't last forever. That sneaky guy tricked me again." Love you!!!
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Can anyone share any success stories regarding Pure/Real Event OCD? I think I just want some uplifting news more than anything, though this may read as reassurance seeking… not sure what counts and what doesn’t. So any education on that may be helpful too. Many thanks!!
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