Is this OCD or really the truth

I’ve dealt with Scrupulosity and ROCD. Initially it was Scrupulosity then when I got into a relationship in the later half of 2023, ROCD got into the mix. ROCD and Scrupulosity integrated where I would have thoughts like “God doesn’t want me to be in this relationship” “if I stay in this relationship, I’m not listening to God” “God will leave me (spirit wise) if I don’t leave.” I was diagnosed with OCD in 2023 after coming into therapy having thoughts like “God is telling me to leave my job and I’m not listening” “God is telling me to sell my car and I’m being prideful” “im reading books too much than reading the Bible” “Im idolizing my hobbies over God.” OCD Got better then got worse. My faith is not where it was in 2023. Im not reading my Bible anymore, im not doing Bible studies, im not listening to worship music. I’m not doing all of the things I was doing in 2023 now here in 2025. My partner and I in the beginning did Bible studies, went to to church together and sometimes prayed together. His relationship with God still looked different than mine at the time though. He didn’t place his faith in the Bible, he saw It as a book of wisdom but not something we put above our spirit. He saw his relationship with God personal and strived to live like Jesus than necessarily worship him. From 2023-2024, I had struggled with my faith after receiving my diagnosis. And I remember crying constantly, crying out to God in prayer but never got answer . Slowly, I started to stop reading my Bible, slowly stopped praying constantly, and slowly stopped listening to worship music or Christian content. My partner has also had his struggles. After moving out of his parents house, he slowly stopped doing these things too. Here in 2025, I’m questioning what the problem is and how to fix it because I feel like I’m going in circles even in therapy. I feel like I can SEE God more working in my life but I don’t FEEL him as much. It’s weird and it’s something I’m struggling to understand. I feel like all things are at play here, my relationship with my partner and his relationship with God, my struggle with OCD, my true relationship with God and how it’s much different now. Sorry this is long. I really want to give as much context. Two years into my relationship, a family business on the rise, the idea of marriage in the mix, I’m not sure how to move forward in my life. It stresses me out constantly and most times I don’t know if this is an OCD problem or a real problem.