I'm extremely distressed, Please help.

I have a a person with a girl child working in my house right now, and when she was here, I was already distressed due to a past event. Her kid came to drop a cloth and told me "work is done" even though her mother had told me the same before. But at the time, I was anxious, and I thought to myself, why did this kid tell me when her mother had already told me. And I assumed the kid just wanted to be friendly, and say something. But then I started to feel weird, I started getting intrusive thoughts of weird nature, that I assumed the kid was interested in me or I'm a weirdo who thinks too much over a simple interaction. Then I realised, the kid probably just wanted to inform me the work is done why did I think she would be friendly, and go out of her way to tell me again, and I have been disgusted at myself due to this, This is not even OCD, this just feels like a weirdo confronting themselves.

Estrid

Date posted: Yesterday

OCD is about overthinking. Stop your rumination.

Pinkchampagne88

Date posted: Yesterday

Thanks.

CameronTheMe...

Date posted: Yesterday

It's definitely OCD. The issue is that you engaged with the pedophilia thoughts and attatched meaning to them, which just validates the thought and makes it more likely to happen again. Everybody has random thoughts, people with OCD just get overly worried about them and attatch meaning to them. Nearly every person has stood next to someone on a ledge and thought about how they could push that person off. They might even feel briefly confused or distressed because of it, but then they move on because it was just a thought. We have thousands of thoughts a day, if not more. But to really consider the possibility of them being a murderer in response to that thought of somebody pushing off a ledge is only really typical of people with OCD, and that validation of the thought ensures that it will come back. To sit there and wonder if it really is an OCD thought validates the fear too. That's why we use ERP's like "I'm having a scary thought and I don't have to do anything about it", and "I don't have to figure this out right now". It disengages the thought loop and keeps it as just a silly thought instead of a real possibility that warrants contemplation. You deserve a break from this thought loop. Rooting for you!! ❤️

Pinkchampagne88

Date posted: Yesterday

Thanks.

Theemersonlily

Date posted: Yesterday

I am so sorry you’re experiencing this. I think this is OCD

Pinkchampagne88

Date posted: Yesterday

But initial thoughts were mine

rottenmoss

Date posted: Yesterday

OCD. It's hard to dismiss these thoughts as intrusive because intrusive thoughts go after the worst possible things to get at you. You're not the only one who has these thoughts, as long as you don't act on them, things will be okay.

Pinkchampagne88

Date posted: Yesterday

I know but point is people get intrusive thoughts and I got the initial thoughts as mine

rottenmoss

Date posted: Yesterday

@Pinkchampagne88 How do you identify that? Asking for myself as well

Pinkchampagne88

Date posted: Yesterday

@rottenmoss Like quoting this part from my para, this Is what I thought, and it feels so disgusting and weird. "Her kid came to drop a cloth and told me "work is done" even though her mother had told me the same before. But at the time, I was anxious, and I thought to myself, why did this kid tell me when her mother had already told me. And I assumed the kid just wanted to be friendly, and say something. "

rottenmoss

Date posted: Yesterday

@Pinkchampagne88 That seems pretty normal to me honestly. I really think this is OCD talking. Start using NERs for now, when you calm down you can look back and journal on this if you need to, definitely talk to your therapist about this and break it down with them.

Pinkchampagne88

Date posted: Yesterday

@rottenmoss I'm looking back and again over analyzing the situation tbh, and now they are saying something completely different, like i just thought "the kid probably just wanted to talk" I can't even think clearly. It's night for me maybe i should just sleep. And also I dont have a therapist help, that's why it's extra hard.

rottenmoss

Date posted: Yesterday

@Pinkchampagne88 Agree, a hard reset through sleep would be smart. Even if you can't get access to a therapist (there's easy access through NOCD!) you should research NERs. Non engagement responses. When you get nervous about a thought, don't engage with them. If you can master that your life will get a lot easier

Estrid

Date posted: Yesterday

@rottenmoss 👍👍👍

Pinkchampagne88

Date posted: Yesterday

@rottenmoss You are right Thanks.

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