Rocd.

Sounds like dissociation. The best thing is therapy but reconnecting with things that you like to do/ things that make you happy could help you feel better.

What you’re doing is a checking compulsion and that’s what is feeding your ocd. When you say “I love you,” you need to resist the urge to observe and analyze exactly how you’re feeling in that moment. You need to stop looking at pictures and then trying to see how your body, feelings, etc reacts. The lack of reaction is because of the checking/testing/analyzing. Next time you notice a weird feeling saying something or looking at something, don’t check. Don’t analyze. Say “maybe I’m not feeling enough, or maybe not. I don’t need to figure this out with any more certainty than I already have in this moment.” And move on. Compulsions fuel our ocd. And that’s what is keeping you trapped. Start resisting. Stop trying to test yourself and figure this out. It will never work the way you want it to. Your mind will give you the opposite response to keep you scared and doing more compulsions.

Believe me or not but having these doubts only shows you really do love him or care about him in the end of the day, Ive had the same and I know it seems like it doesnt make sense but nowdays I am really sure. Because if you truly lost feelings you wouldnt care but the fact you keep thinking about it only shows the opposite.. I know now you will maybe think: But what if I dont care? Yes you do, theres the proof :)

The best way to understand my feelings is my mom. She would ask me always once having those feelings how I’d feel if my boyfriend broke up with me or if I could imagine being without him. I know I’d be so upset if he left because I love him a lot. I used to get worried if I was losing feelings sometimes too with different things and have struggled with rocd a lot but it got so much better once I started dating my boyfriend. It gets better and easy to identify how u really feel if u can understand how u felt if u ask urself questions and if u just know how much u love ur partner. If u know its just ocd, Write down all the things u love about ur partner to remind u each time u may be having these thoughts that it’s just ur ocd.