Struggling

In my experience, God rarely provides the clear answers to my questions that I would like. When I want to know what I should do with an important decision, He usually doesn't give me an answer. His response is usually an invitation to trust in His goodness and sovereignty. The picture that scripture presents of Jesus as our good shepherd has been a great comfort to me lately. Sheep are kinda dumb and need constant guidance and correction from their shepherd. This guidance is a continuous, moment-by-moment process. A good shepherd doesn't provide the sheep with a map and expect them to make their own way to their destination. Instead, God guides us one step at a time, not usually giving us a clear picture of what's ahead. He is also incredibly patient with us when we are confused and misunderstand Him. He won't let us wander too far off before bringing us back. The the questions you are asking God are good questions, but it's okay if you don't feel like you hear a definite answer. God might just be asking you to trust Him through the uncertainty, and that He will provide any direction you actually need when you actually need it. Not early. Not late. Until then, keep practicing sitting with the uncertainty. I know it's hard, but Emmanuel, God with us, is right there with you. God knows that those of us who deal with OCD don't actually need the certainty that we want; that it is actually bad for us. But He is faithful to walk with us through it

Hi there! I have struggles too when it comes to God talking, including with whom I wanna marry. I am Italian American, and I desire only to marry that. I often get thoughts and feelings, and even memories that God has told me no and it freaks me out. My advice is to just pray and rest in his presence. I hope you get back with your boyfriend at some point. You go!