Many themes going on, oh what the heck

The themes that are playing out right now: Real Event OCD, Moral OCD, POCD, Health OCD, Pet OCD, ROCD, Existential OCD, and that's all I can think of right now. (And these are the themes that are playing RIGHT NOW, not all the ones that I have. That'd be great if that was the case.) Real Event OCD: I'm ruminating over the past actions I've done with my ex as a small teen and I'm mad at him + middle school events, I also am freaking about going to school in the future soon when breaks over because I have to see familiar classmates again and last time I threw up because of it. + Events of hypersexuality during when I was young and curious. Moral OCD/POCD: Social media, freaking about past socials and messages (also relates to Real Event OCD) and ruminating since some accounts are completely out of reach + some I may not know how to terminate ever. + worried about if I accidentally said something messed up and scared of future and digital footprint, Epste*n files news are not making me feel good at all, etc. Health OCD: Everyone is sick and I'm sorta worried for myself and them. + Scared of usual illnesses and stuff. I'm also anemic and that's flaring a bit so that sometimes freaks me out. Pet OCD: Last post explains it more but basically I'm nervous for my dog sometimes, he's adorable but sometimes a demon. Rocd: I have no boyfriend (for reasons, + ocd makes it worse and also I'm demi) but this is more for friendships and that's a lot to explain but basically I have occurring thoughts and wondering whether if it's falling apart or not. I'll most likely explain it more sooner or later. Who knows. Existential OCD: Fear of aging (not because of physical but mostly due to fears of future, what people will see me as, I don't want to let go of childhood ever.) I was dissociating a bit yesterday and now I feel a bit sick. I hope my mood goes up later again, there's a LOT more to say but that's enough for now. --- What am I going to do about all of this stress and bad thoughts? I'll freak out internally but physically I'm going out to buy some cool snacks because it's still break. 😤 I mostly posted this to sort of let it out, and maybe for some who are freaking out major time on many things, me too we're all in this together. <:")

coldcoldshiver

Date posted: Yesterday

Your POCD/Moral OCD stuff is so relatable. your NEVER alone in this, km exactly the same . The fear of never being able to erase stuff, fear that you hurt aomeone or acted inappropriately… its awful!!! Wishing you the best :)

VVbee

Date posted: Yesterday

Yes it feels absolutely painful ! I always feel as I'm less worthy for the past things despite nowadays fearing I may sound "too blunt" or even the slightest bit rude towards someone. Learned many things through the hard way, but knowing others are going through the same makes me feel less alone. Thank you for the kind wishes! <333

unslicedlime

Date posted: Yesterday

really relate w the moral ocd bit back in august i thought i myself was in the files as well☹️ same w the existential ocd. part of me is kind of looking forward to my next semester so i have less time to fall into the rumination trap

VVbee

Date posted: Yesterday

Ah yesss- I thought I was the only one who was scared for the files and myself. I was scared that I somehow got into the files and was a perpetrator (despite that being... extremely unrealistic.) And for the existential part I can agree quite a bit as well, both feeling as if I just want to get the fear over with but also fearing that time is going by too quick.. :") Glad we're in this together tho ! 🥹

unslicedlime

Date posted: Yesterday

@VVbee yeah it’s nice to know we aren’t alone in all of this

Vee92

Date posted: Yesterday

Just know you aren’t alone in any of it. This can be such a lonely disease but I completely understand

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