I need advice with my rocd and porn

Although this inst related to POCD it may as well use the same advice. Basically in the past when i was younger i have watched porn. Alot of people do. I personally dont agree with it now but thats not the point right now. My OCD has made me stuck on certain stuff ive watched in the past. I fall into the trap of trying to remember why I exactly did and that whole spiral/mess. This affects me to this day because it makes me worry I am into that type of stuff I watched even though I am obviously very disturbed and uncomfortable with it. I watch porn less and less due to me trying to quit for years at this point. I havent touched the stuff I am speaking of sense that point. But id also like to add my emotions and porn "addiction" were at a way worse point at that time. Now it makes me very scared and diffucult to even think about relationships or anything now due to that fear. I know i shouldnt think about porn until im even in a relatiobship first but its not like i can just control what my ocd thinks about. Plus ive already heard it from my therapist. 😅 I have tried ERP so much but this seems to be one of my worst themes of all times. Any advice would be greatly appricated and not reassurance.

SimplerTimes

Date posted: 23d

First off, please remember to be kind to yourself. We often times feel isolated and alone with OCD (you are never alone!), but self care is very important. Connecting with friends and loved ones, even just being around people helps immensely. OCD loves to feed off of all sorts of possible things in the past; it loves that because we feel as if we cannot change it and are stuck. Avoid research, Reddit, ChatGPT, confessions, anything that would give you temporary compulsive relief. What I would instead like to offer is not reassurance, but hope: you are not alone, you are not your thoughts. Be the person you envision and do things that bring you joy. Even if it doesn’t feel like something you’d like to do, just give it a try. Bulk up with therapy and get some support. They’ll know how to help and for it to be effective. Be patient, we often want things to happen overnight, but they do take time. I wish you all the love and support in the world. I truly want you to enjoy life and as someone who can relate to you, you’ve got this and are not alone.

onedayaat

Date posted: 23d

Thanks, i hope you mean to try things that bring me joy, right? Because i dont want to try the thing that im obsessing over.

SimplerTimes

Date posted: 23d

@onedayaat Yes, things that bring you joy; for example, I like just sitting with my dogs and petting them. It calms me and they’re always so happy to see me.

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