False Memory OCD

@seekinghelp0 We will get through this. The uncertainty and doubt is brutal but it has brought me to a new mindset and realization that only you and I can understand what we feel, people can relate, but our own struggles are unique to us individually. We have to stay strong and stay busy and fight and never give in.

@matthewmatthewmatthew How u feeling now? Going through something similar right now so is super hard

@Illyas I’m late to this response, the severity of the impact that it has on my mental health is greatly declined, and it has become somewhat of a background noise to me, however when I want to pursue something it pops back up with the same impact it once had. Staying busy, improving yourself whether it is the gym, school, a hobby, will help a lot. I recommend doing multiple things a day and to avoid “doomscrolling” or alone time where you will think a lot. Accepting the fact that you will never truly know the answer is extremely hard, but over time it will naturally sink in. I’ve found that in situations where I even find the answer to something, my brain will still refuse to believe it is correct. So either way, we possibly don’t win. Just live everyday fully, improve yourself each given second, and live for a better tomorrow.

@matthewmatthewmatthew Was yours like a fucked yo one tho? Like mine is entangled with POCD and it’s so hard cuz it happened exactly as you describe me I was scrolling down on TikTok and one video put the what if thought and after days of me ruminating a image finally pop in my head. I feel like the content makes it so hard but somehow deep down I know I wouldn’t fucking do it does that make sense? It’s like you knowing damn well you wouldn’t idk eat dog or something that’s like hell nah. But still the images keeps on coming back

@Illyas Unfortunately it is, from what I have researched, false memories target things/events that you would never do. It targets your morals and makes you second guess yourself causing your own identity and own self-trust to be questioned and or destroyed. It has been absolute hell on earth for me, and I understand everything you are mentioning clearly. What I personally do is organize everything, all of my thoughts all the way to my room. Organize everything. I always remind myself that my physical priorities must be done, and then I will grant myself the burden of letting my brain freely worry. It is extremely difficult, and I won’t say it will get better, but I will say it can become easier to manage. Just takes time, effort, and self reflection. Stay strong!