Anxious about meet-up 🥹

I totally get this! I was at community college for the first two years and felt like my out of state friends were always having a better/more exciting time. In reality, they were just having a different time, not better or worse, and I liked being at home for longer anyway. I could see how OCD could worsen this and create an obsession out of not wanting to bore your friend, or draw a blank if she asks you questions. Of course, this won’t be the case, but to help in the meantime- 1. Prep some points/Talk about things that pertain to your friendship and common experiences (if you both knew someone in highschool, do you have any updates she wouldn’t know? If you like painting or any other hobby, what’s something you’ve made/done recently that you’re proud of?) 2. Allow yourself to listen. If it is true that she’s having many more new experiences, she’ll probably want to speak for a while about those things, which will probably take up most of your conversation. Also, if she shares first, she’ll want to hear all about you when she’s done, which will help the flow of conversation. 3. If you draw a blank, tell your friend to let you think about it and ask a question about her instead. After 1-2 minutes you can come back to you, and likely give a much better answer than if you were rushed. 3. Know that, since she’s your friend, the best part of your time will just be being together, regardless of whether or not what you share is supremely interesting. I’m happy for you- have a great time!

I feel this way too about my best girl friends I’ve had for many many years! Even if my life has gone through all kinds of twists and turns, I still get so much anxiety beforehand and practice conversations that when we finally see each other, if we go off my “predetermined script” I completely lose my train of thought and everything becomes mumbo jumbo.. and then I stress I’m boring them.