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Real life OCD is hard! I lost my job due to my health and now I am on leave for a new job that I fear loosing. Basically I am having to say I cannot control whatever people think of me. I have been weeding out people in my life that trigger me after trying to maintain relationships with them. Priorities and boundaries are important when living your truth. I am sorry life got hard and you need to navigate it. Take your power back even if that means you have a smaller tight knit community! Your life will be better for it.

i relate to this so much. when i was younger i had an edgy phase where i said and did offensive things as well. i really regret that behavior and i’m so ashamed of it.