OCD losing its grip

I’ve currently been in a bad POCD spiral for 4 months. My reassurance seeking (Ai and google) has kept it alive. This week it’s started to lose its grip and I’ve realized how irrational it is. However now OCD has been like “ok we’ll take the thing that made him realize it was irrational and put it up against him!” It’s now transitioned into a surveillance theme. With how heavily Ai is moderated and with my sensitive theme it’s telling me “yeah so you looked up all these suspicious or incriminating questions on this sensitive topic and now someone is gonna investigate you or falsely accuse you of doing the thing you were scared you did”. I even had a conversation straight up falsely flagged for “attempting to generate harmful content involving minors”. What really triggered this was seeing that NFL player who allegedly murdered his gf in court where they used his ChatGPT conversations as evidence. Anyone else ever deal with this before? Like your fear loses grip so it jumps to that?

Yvonne120

User type: OCD Conqueror

Date posted: 12d

My OCD will jump to different thoughts once it realizes that the one it is affecting me only in a little way. It like changes the channel to see if it can get a bigger reaction. I always keep that in mind.

Illyas

User type: OCD Conqueror

Date posted: 12d

You have false memory with POCD as well?

ocduser03

Date posted: 12d

@Illyas Yes I feel like this set up is more frustrating than regular POCD as it’s telling you you might have hurt a child and forgot or didn’t realize you did

Jher55

Date posted: 2d

I’m going through something like this too. I had a comment pop in my head and freaked out cause it felt real and I went to AI for reassurance. First time I got a message similar to yours and felt like the cops were coming for me in days or weeks (this was in december) the other was about a month ago and that one did not bring up a flag but all I could think of weeks later after was “what if they see these chats and they think I’m this monster”. honestly a part of me doesn’t think anything’s going to happen but the other part of me which is always the strongest feeling unfortunately is someone is going to knock on my door one day and arrest me. Maybe in days weeks or years. And I’m honestly so scared and depressed. Like I wish I never used AI🫩.

ocduser03

Date posted: 20h

@Jher55 This is literally what I’m going through, I wish I knew AI would’ve caused this to get worse otherwise I would’ve never used it. Like I know now my fear is likely irrational so that’s not the part I’m worried about anymore. It’s the “I’m gonna get reported because of what I said to AI and I’ll get falsely accused”. It sucks because it so open ended we might not get closure on this for years. And like yours of course it’s branched into other things.

Jher55

Date posted: 15h

@ocduser03 Yea this sucks! Like they’ll be days where I forget about it and the. There are days where I’m just like “oh yea I forgot 😔” I hate it! I hear some people say that currently they don’t and someone has also said that they won’t but that spent help cause my brain will still think the worst. So regardless what I hear it won’t help. I have to get back with my therapist. But overall I hope you get better though!

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