Is there hope for me?

There’s most definitely hope for you, it’s just a matter of finding the right course. It sounds like you’re experiencing a lot of physiological symptoms. Since you’re in therapy I’m going to assume you’ve learned box breathing and 4-7-8 breathing and found them to be unhelpful. I would definitely reach out to your med provider. I’m not sure if you’ve tried beta blockers or not but they tend to help a lot of the physiological symptoms. There’s also treatments like Neurofeedback that help train your nervous system to relax naturally. You’ll break through the wall, just have to keep working at it

I believe my brother that you need to accept a little faith. The thing about glass, it can be shattered. Don't worry about that ceiling. I can relate and suffer from some of the same exact symptoms only I can guarantee you're not going through the gaslighting and manipulation that I'm forced to endure. The lies thats been told about me when at first I could clearly see the intrusive thoughts were simply that, a intrusive false thought. A lie. Someone could say a rumor that was said about me and I could immediately dismiss some outrageous accusation then my mind will some how ruminate and repeat how the lie repulsed me to no end only for my OCD to turn on me then all of a sudden a made up unrealistic thing becomes a false reality. It's gotten so bad to the point if someone misplaced something, my mind would automatically somehow tell them I've stolen whatever the item was only for them to find it moments later. It's a constant battle. If you don't mind me asking what medication are you currently taking? Because I know what has done wonders for me when it comes to our similar symptoms.

I haven't had similar symptoms yet or tried this but have heard about vagus nerve mobilization/exercises for fight or flight reset. A few physical therapists can do it, but it may be worth exploring a little about it if you feel stuck 🤷