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You are safe and these feelings are temporary. No feelings are ever permanent. You’ve made it this far, you will see the light again❤️

Have felt these ways in the past, it’s really tough being in the BIG whoosh of OCD. It is painful and scary in that place. ERP therapy and work with my NOCD counselor really helped me. Facing the distress/anxiety, really does train the brain to bring it down. It does take some time, doing my homework wasn’t easy, but little bit by little bit, I began to identify intrusive thoughts and use ERP response statements. My brain has learned how to function in uncertainty without distress. As my anxiety, distress has decreased, my brain has become clearer, not so overwhelmed, my thoughts don’t race anymore, I can focus. I have also had to work on recovering from co-dependency, to fully gain my identity back and then I learned in the place of feeling safe, less fear, to feel again. But am now back to myself and am at peace and at maintenance in my therapy. Each person’s path varies, sometimes there are other co-occurring issues, but would encourage you to show grace to yourself, also known as self-compassion, as you would to someone else in your place. Encourage you to communicate with your doctors/counselor/therapists and see if there are any other factors going on. If you’re not in therapy, would highly recommend that you check out ERP. It is scientifically proven to help. Many of us have experienced these things and are recovering with ERP therapy. There is hope.

Medications or supplements can be helpful along with ERP/counseling, with finding the ones that work. It does take some time to figure out which ones are helpful. Each person’s brain varies, sometimes different ones work for different people. Keep persevering until you find the answers you need. I personally see an excellent Naturopath and take what she has recommended. Having a caring doctor that understands OCD is very beneficial.

Im wondering if you leaving your partner made you more isolated. Thats what happened to me, when I lost my job and was spending a lot more time alone and at home, the OCD really got worse as it thrives on isolation and you being more in your own head. Going for walks around town and socializing really helped with that. Kind of stops your brain from viewing all thats going on in your head (obsessions, what ifs, fears, worries, etc) as reality. The need to do compulsions is then much less present. It also gives you a better spot to do ERP!