Are these actual intrusive thoughts or am I lying to myself?

I am feeling really scared lately, as my ocd has twisted triggers a bit for me. I keep having intrusive thoughts while feeling happy or I feel happy afterward, which TERRIFIES me. I have had SO-OCD/HOCD for about 2 and half months now. I just really want to know if anyone else has experienced intrusive thoughts in this way. I also can get really anxious at some specific people in general (namely people I find attractive (not in a weird way) or gay people/lesbians). Is this normal for people with SO-OCD/HOCD? I haven't had ocd for very long and only recently started ocd based therapy, so I dont know much yet.

katehatesocd

Date posted: 22h

I hate my ocd with my entire body and soul so if anyone has any tips to help as well they would be much appreciated. I am also terrified that because I have this ocd I might 'realize' or 'figure out' that I am gay. I have seen posts on reddit about this, but also posts here saying don't trust or listen to reddit posts

katehatesocd

Date posted: 22h

sorry for the continuation in the replies but im going through a bit of a flare up and I really don't want to be seen or perceived as gay or lesbian.

I’m Batman

Date posted: 21h

@katehatesocd Unfortunately we cannot control how others perceive us. You can only control you. The real lesson here I think though is just because others think you are gay or strait does not make you either. How you feel and identify is what makes you you.

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