I am a true Bible believing Christian

Hi I've had blasphemous thoughts for a long time. When they began it was triggered by stress. I didn't know it was OCD. It isnt you. It's your brain and your fear triggering this. You need to do erp and really learn about the mechanics of OCD.

I have no insurance could you explain to me how to get through this

because it’s interfering with my faith,Im a true Christian and these fears are really bothering me,I love the Lord Jesus Christ with all my heart.

and I feel so ashamed

and depressed about it

The thoughts that I am having are thoughts like Jesus is the devil,pray to the devil,and because I had these thoughts I’m going to hell just because I had them,I try to trust the Lord to get me through them and they still keep coming,it’s never ending torture

never ending torture of thoughts that I do not want to have,fear that I’m going to lose control and do it.

You need to understand that it is a fear response. And that it will build build upon itself. That is, when you worry more about the thoughts ,and ruminate, it increases. And the more you try to suppress these thoughts and even feelings that may come up, it will get more intense. The ruminating and thought suppression are compulsion and compulsions feed the disorder and strengthen those pathways in your brain. You have to let the thoughts come. And know who you are. And doubts are okay too. God understands doubts. People who blaspheme want to blaspheme. And they don't care. Even if you feel as though you're pulling the thoughts in, thats your brain flagging it as super important.

Guilt is paramount feeling of OCD. And that can keep you in a state of rumination

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Because you are so sensitive about God and Jesus, your brain flags that as extremely important. And that is what OCD latches onto. It has happened to me. I still struggle at times. I've had a blasphemous phrase go thru my head for years. And the more I ruminate and feel bad and think about it and try to figure it out, the worse it got. You have to get to the point where you know these are thoughts that don't represent who you are. The thoughts happen out of fear. You also can't avoid situations that may trigger he thoughts. Avoidance trains the brain further, that these thoughts are important. You have to face the thoughts head on. And that's what happens during ERP.

so what if I have an actual thought that says I accept that Jesus is the devil out of fear what then,are we damned for that?

The fear is paralyzing though

it feels impossible to get through

and the doubt is so strong

dang it’s so rough

Why does it cause me to trust in myself even when I see evidence that tells me otherwise

that tells me that that’s not the truth