- Date posted
- Yesterday
Will ut ever get better
I would be grateful, if someone could answer! So Ive had HOCD for months but now luckily its gone Idk how I did that but the thoughts dont bother me anymore. And for the last coupe of montag I was so happy, not worrying about anything. My life finally felt worth Living. But now it has all turnen upside down. For dass ago I slept for 14 hours and I suddenly bekamen anxious: what if I wont fall asleep tonight because I slept so much? And that night I only slept 3 hours- Idk if it was due to my overthinking or the fact that I slept so little. Then the day after that I was panicking, scared to go to bed, and that I Would not sleep again. Well that night I actuallly slept 7 hours. But now this night it took me 3 hours to fall asleep. I World be tired but my heart is always puonding and everytime I Would drift off I Would become super aware of the fact, that I would fall asleep. Ik it sounds silly but its keeping me from sleeping and Im helpless. Im scared that Im developing severe Insomnia. The worst Part is, that I really struggled with sleeping before and was finally over it and happy and not worrying about it anymore. And I was just so so happy. But now its back Worse than before and I dont know what to do. The only way I was able to sleep tonight was with my dad laying next to me. My dad. This cant be the solution forever and Im just really really helpless and dont know what to do. Im scared of tonight and dont know how to handle this and the fear of not sleeping