Help with rocd

Hi everyone, I’m really struggling and I wanted to know if anyone can relate. I’m in a loving relationship and I care so much about my boyfriend, but I constantly obsess over my thoughts, my eyes, and my intentions. For example, today I went into a phone store and there were two male employees. I immediately noticed one of them and even thought something like “okay, that’s better.” Then he was the one helping me. While we were talking, At one point he looked away and I looked at him for a second, and ever since then I’ve been spiraling. I replay everything: * Did I want to look? * Was I checking if he was attractive? * Does this mean I’m attracted to him? * Does this mean I don’t respect my relationship? Sometimes my eyes also drift toward people’s bodies or intimate areas, and I obsess over what that means. I also have random mental images or fantasies about other people, sometimes romantic or sexual, and I can’t tell if they’re intrusive, intentional, or something I secretly want. I spend hours trying to figure out my “true intention.” The worst part is that I keep asking my boyfriend for reassurance because I’m terrified that I’m disrespecting him or that these thoughts mean I don’t truly love him. I feel like I analyze every interaction and every glance until I don’t even know what I actually think anymore. I can’t trust myself, and I feel like I’m constantly looking for certainty that I’m still a good partner. Has anyone experienced something similar? How do you stop trying to figure out every single thought, look, or fantasy and just live normally again?