Newly Diagnosed

Hi! ☺️ I just got diagnosed this week and I’m feeling relieved and happy to have an answer but I’m also struggling with feeling like my thoughts and patterns aren’t as extreme as others so what if I don’t actually have OCD? Like maybe I don’t deserve the label or something? I don’t know. 🙃 I’ve also been having a separate thought of what if I was actually lying to my psychiatrist about my experience and nothing I told her was real and I just made things up to get a diagnosis? Which I know isn’t true because I do experience these thought patterns and loops but I don’t know I keep going back and replaying and doubting things. When I type this out it seems kinda silly but I’m just wondering if anyone can relate? Or if there’s any advice? Thanks! 😊

Ohhpaigey

Date posted: 14h

I’m feeling this same way right now too. I don’t really have any physical compulsions so it makes me think I don’t deserve an OCD label. I feel like I’m a phony somehow and I’m faking it. Sorry not much advice, but just wanted to let you know you’re not alone!

PurpleHeather39

Date posted: 13h

@Ohhpaigey It’s super helpful to know I’m not alone! Thank you! I’m sorry you’re struggling with this too though. That’s exactly how I’m feeling. It is hard I feel like so much of OCD is in your head so it’s like you can’t see how much people are struggling so it feels like only the most extreme cases are worthy of being diagnosed because you can see it more through their behaviors. But it’s easy to mask when it’s mostly just thought patterns. But I see you and I’m with you! We’re worthy of diagnosis and treatment and support too. 👑

Anonymous

User type: OCD Conqueror

Date posted: 13h

I was diagnosed about a year ago and I had the same exact experience. I never had any physical compulsions and I thought I was lying about having OCD. It seems that a lot of newbies have this in common, just know that it does get better and that you are not alone!!

PurpleHeather39

Date posted: 13h

@Anonymous Thank you so much for commenting! That’s super reassuring! I’m sorry you had to go through this too but I’m glad to hear things better. ☺️

Anonymous

Date posted: 13h

I have this too and its called pure o when you dont really have physical compulsions but more mental compulsions like ruminating

PurpleHeather39

Date posted: 13h

@Anonymous Yes! That’s good to know! Thank you! I’m just starting to look into the types so it’s very helpful to hear this. 😊 We got this! 🫶🏼

M.J

Date posted: 13h

You're not alone. Im Going through some of the same things thoughts feelings. I feel like Everyone around me makes me feel pathetic and like what im going through is ridiculous. And that i just need or have to shake it off and move on and be normal again. Its so hard difficult draining exhausting. 🫂❤️

PurpleHeather39

Date posted: 13h

@M.J Ugh I feel this so hard and I’m so sorry you’re struggling. ☹️ I haven’t even told my family or close friends yet because I’m super nervous they’ll just brush it off or tell me I don’t have it and I’m just lazy and I’m fine. 🙃 It’s definitely exhausting to feel like an island but you’re not alone either. 💕💕 Try your hardest to trust in yourself and know that you’re valid and you’re worthy of support. ❤️ I felt so silly posting this but I’m glad I did! It’s helping to talk to people who get it. ✨

M.J

Date posted: 13h

@PurpleHeather39 Thank you!! 💞💞🫂 ✨️

goofy goober

Date posted: 12h

i think the purpose of ocd is to feel like you can trust yourself, the doubting disorder if you will! you’re not alone I’ve had my diagnosis for about 2 months already and still have the same spiral, im looking into getting further help soon due to having lack of assistance in my area thru NOCD but we got this!

PurpleHeather39

Date posted: 7h

@goofy goober That’s so true! Thank you! I’m sorry you’re feeling this as well but it’s nice to know I’m not alone in feeling this way. I hope you can find something that works for you. 🩷 Keep on fighting! You deserve to feel supported! We definitely got this! ☀️

Stephaniekt

Date posted: 10h

Also just diagnosed within the past week and feeling this exact way! It’s so reassuring knowing I’m not alone, but hate that we’re both struggling with this. I have pretty bad health ocd and optimization ocd (which isn’t an official subtype yet), but I was wondering if it was health ocd related with the fears of not telling professionals enough or having a wrong diagnosis. But, from these replies, it seems even more common than I realized to have these initial thoughts! So far, these support groups have been helpful to make me feel less alone with all of this!

PurpleHeather39

Date posted: 7h

@Stephaniekt It is reassuring to hear but yes I’m so sorry you’ve been feeling this way too! Thank you for sharing your insight and your experiences. 🫶🏼 It’s tough but I agree that it’s helpful to connect with people in these groups and talk to those who get it. You’re not alone! ❤️✨

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